Java is Love

School started about 2 weeks ago. My course curriculum includes Java Programming and I know that I have to study seriously harder than I did before. I have the outmost respect for this course because I know that it’s gonna be the foundation of my programming knowledge. =)

Focus on significant school stuff. =)

The Last Time

This is gonna be the last time that I’ll act like a fool and beat my heart to death... This is gonna be the last time my tears will fall because of you... This is gonna be the last time that I’ll make a huge rubbish of myself... This is gonna be the last time you’ll hear from me...
The Last Time...

The Circus

No matter how hard I try to tell myself that I'm okay, I know that somehow deep inside, I still feel the pain, the sadness and the good thing is I'm really good at hiding those unwanted feelings.

Most people I know will see me every day like I'm doing fine and nothing's wrong... But deep inside my heart, I know "There Will Always be Those Unexplainable Reasons Why I Have to Wear My Fake Smiling Face Every Single Day..."

I have never been this lonely in my life and no one seems to ever notice and that's really great because I don't have to feel guilty and explain myself why I am this way.

My life had been through deep waves of mostly downs and those one-minute lifting ups... No one may ever understand me, because they never tried to, they always tend to judge me before they look at me from a good side. People whom I thought cared for me are sometimes the ones who bring me down and push me hard on the ground... =(

My Life is a Circus, not because it is colorful but because of the happy masks I have to wear everyday.