Hoping for a Goodnight Sleep

After 4 wee morning hours of dreadful sleep, I'm hoping that I can have a peaceful and calm one this morning...

I'm so tired, I did a general cleaning of our house this morning. All the bedrooms, kitchen, living room. We don't have a huge house but it's still very exhausting. I cleaned all the fans and the aircondition filter. Change all the bed sheets and pillow cases. Dust all the furnitures and cook something for meryenda.

I slept for like 15-20 minutes yesterday afternoon but woke up because I heard my old favorite songs in the Wowowee show, sung by some vocalists of my favorite old bands in high school such as Alamid, Color it Red and Even Free Style. I actually really like their songs 'til now. Gave me the idea of downloading some of those songs and synch them into my iPod.

I was craving for an orange juice so I made one, I think its been a while since i had an orange juice. Its always iced tea, soda's, fruit shake, chocolate shake. I guess I really did missed its citrus flavor.

We are planning on cooking spring rolls and "paksiw na pata" my mama's specialty (well she actually cooks good) for lunch.

But anyway, back on the so-called hoping for a goodnight or should I say good morning sleep... I can still remember some flashes of a bad dream yesterday. I'm really praying that I won't have the same one or a dream closer to the one I had.

For some it may not seem bad enough, but for me, it's a bloody bad dream... :(( I haven't had a sleepless dreams for a very long while... I haven't even sleep well. I always feel sleepy at 2, 3 or 4 in the morning. Except when I feel sick, there would be a slight chance of a regular sleep for me.

I'm also praying for a nice start today, unlike yesterday...

A nice cold rain will make me feel better. :) and a quiet Sunday is what I'm hoping for...

A nice and blessed Sunday for me, my family, my friends and for everyone. :D

A Hot Saturday Morning

I slept at around 2am this morning and woke at 6am... It's soooo hot and I hate it when I woke up really early.

I had a not so very nice dream... and I just want to forget about it, right away. Especially if today's gonna be hotter than the days before, it's so irritating. *grrr...*

Whats most irritating about this day???

I woke up feeling tired and bad dreams lingering in my head. (kainis!!!).

Airconditioned rooms doesn't even work, because when you got outside the room even for just 2 minutes, you'll feel way hotter...

Shower rains yesterday made it even worse. I was hoping that when it rains, it pours!!! with thunderstorms and lighting... I need rain and the cold feeling it brings... I used to not like the rain, for the reason that it makes me feel sad... and I don't even know the reason why...

Hope later this day would be better... *fingers crossed*.

Ted Failon's wife, Trinidad Etong died tonight at The New Era Hospital

Source: ABS-CBN NEWS BANDILA

Trinidad died tonight in the New Era Hospital.

Her Sisters and Brother was forcedly detained tonight from The New Era Hospital by the QCPD. The Police insisted on capturing the members of the family to be questioned.

Ted Failon was cleared from the paraffin test and was also released tonight.

Trinidad died without her family by her side. Their youngest daughter doesn't have a slightest idea that her mother passed away until she got in the hospital.

Their daughter Kate Etong, had an interview with Korina Sanchez and admitted that her mother committed suicide. She was telling that every member of their family were all innocent.

Trinidad's sister Pam also had an interview retelling the story of how her sister showed signs of suicidal attempt and how she killed herself... and that like her niece Kate, she stands for what she believes that every member of their family were all innocent.

The QCPD, were accusing them of Obstruction of Justice. Even the Bureau of Immigration put Ted Failon on their watchlist.

Public Attorneys Office will also be accused by the Department Of Justice if they will interfere with the said "Issue". While Atty. Persida Acosta would just want to make sure that Ted Failon and the members of the family would have a fair justice.

I pray for Trinidad's soul to rest in peace. My all sincere condolences to her family, especially her kids and her husband Ted Failon.

A Late Post...

It's now 12:33am and we're still wide awake, here in my room.

I want to blog about a girl I know, a strong woman... Someone who fights through and through...

I can see the pain in her eyes, physically and mentally... but then, she still fights for her life, she fights to still be with her son. I've known her all my life, though we're never really close, she has always been part of it and will always be.

Awhile ago, she cannot even say a word, except for the words: "cecille, ang sakit... dito sa likod... and sakit, sa lahat..." but now, she shares some of her stories, some stories that i never knew... Now, we feel much better. I can hear laughter echoing in the four sides of my room. :)

I admire her for being so strong, so courageous, such a fighter, so strong with her faith in our creator...

I admire her family, her sister for being by her side and making her feel better. Her mommy for also being such a strong woman...

Right now, she's telling a story about her son. "One night, she ask her son to go to bed and her son, told her: mommy di pa pwede sleep, may pray pa tayo..." this is what her son ask on his prayer:"

"God, galing mommy ko ha..."

Her son only turned 3 this month, but can say prayers to make her mommy get well. That's one pure love... pure care.

This woman, My cousin, makes me wanna go on and fight for My life too... the life that I have many times lost but now, I feel much stronger and I feel calm. I never felt calm in my life... not until the last few months that passed by...

I know most of us in this world go through so many struggles, I know how hard it is to say that we can make it through all of this, how we always wanna give up...

But amongst all of this pains and even more pains... I know I will make it through... I know We can all make it through...

So let's just keep on holding through our faith and never give up... Hold on tight to Our Creator and soon We'll see the brighter side of our Lives. :D

One Way Out - Discovery Channel Asia

I Love watching Discovery Channel and I don't have to explain the reason why. Right? :D

There's this new show, that was first aired last April 1st, Wednesday at 09:00pm.

The show is about this guy, Jonathan Goodwin with is best mate Mikey Nelson and their engineer Terry Stroud, who tries to make an escape through a very impossible situations... well, not really impossible but very difficult sorts of situations. It's crazy and morbidly put out and I love it.:D

The show is aired every wednesday at 09:00pm, that is tonight and I can't wait to see another crazy escape from this hunky guy Jonathan. *wink*.

The name of the show speaks for itself. so if you want to see a show that is more extreme than a circus stunt and more believable than a magic trick, you should watch this show.:D

Here's a link about the show information. http://www.discoverychannel.co.uk/web/one_way_out/

Can't wait for 9pm.:D

Orange Sun

Yesterday's sun shine a bright orange. My niece Pauline showed me the different sun color and we decided to take picture of it.

We took the firsts shots from a basin with water, because i can't take a shot straight from the direction of the sun, it was too bright. My niece is sort of weird and really likes to look at the sun directly.

She took a shot of the orange sun. The shot shows how orange it looks. I decided to blog about it, because its weird enough for me. hehehe. :D I don't know the exact reason why it shines an orange shade yesterday but what I'm sure of, is that its soooooo hot yesterday... makes my head ache.

Here's the shot of the Orange Sun yesterday a little late in the afternoon. :)

From the Basin:



Direct Shot:



My Niece with "The Basin":




*tamang kakulitan lang. hehehe. :D

Palawan, Here We Come!!! :D

We plan on going to Palawan this May and spend two weeks there. :D yehey!!! we'll stay in the Estero's Ancestral Home, with tita Cristy, its really very nice of her to accommodate us. :D thanks tita!!! :D

Ate Gladz at her dad tito Danny, well be in Palawan earlier, they'll be there on April 25th.

Then Me, Mama, ate Chy, tita Diding and my college best buddy will take our flight on May 5th next month. :D wah... I can't wait to be in Palawan!!! :D this is my first time to get to see the beauty of that place, I'm so excited. hehehe. and to spent it with the people I care, makes it more nice. :D

I'm sure it will be a blast. :D

My kuya Donald arrange our flight last Thursday night through online booking in PhilippineAirlines.com

Thanks to my kuya Donald. :D (he's actually a Flight attendant in Philippine Airlines. :D (gorgeous kasi sya) hehehe. :D

I'll post pictures and blog about our Palawan Trip. :D

Just Really excited. hahaha. :D

See you soon tita Cristy.:D

The Rest of My Holy Week

I Had a wonderful Holy Week, My relatives went to visit us here in the province. The Gagalang - Gracia Family was here last Holy Friday, with the kids. I miss them sooooo much... :) They're all big kids now. :) one of them "ate Ella" received an award when she graduated from kindergarten. :) (mana kay ninang cil). Maemae, my very sexy niece, got even sexier. hehehe. and their youngest Migz, can now say loads of words. :)

Then Last Holy Saturday the Benitez Family spend the rest of their Holy Week here. :) It was crazily nice to see them. :) also nice to see that my Tselen is okay after her eye operation. :) and my tita Bheng, getting sexier too. *wink* and tita Ens, Mimi. all of them and kuya Jun fixing some stuff here in our house. :D was all too nice, but too bad they just got to be here for a couple of days. But tita Ens told me they'll be back in no time for our summer swimming. :D

I wasn't able to spend most of my Holy Week doing the same things I used to do, I attended the mass last Thursday, I wasn't feeling well that time but I insisted to go anyway, from what I can remember, I saw ate Chy and told here that I felt like I was gonna have a seizure, then she decided to walk me home, I didn't make it through inside our house, I already had my seizure in our yard. They told me it was very short seizure (thank goodness), I had some bruises but it's okay.

I wanted to attend the Friday procession, because its my yearly "panata", but I decided not to and my family won't let me. It was very hot Friday and there's a 90% possibility that I may have seizure while in the procession, all I could do was take pictures when the procession passed by our street.

I felt somehow sad for not being able to spend more time with kuya Donny, ate Gladz and ate Chy. There's always some other time for us though. :D

Then we attended the anticipated Easter Sunday mass last Saturday at 09:00pm here in our Parish Church. It was a different mass for everyone of us (I guess). It all started with the lighting of the candles in the Churchyard, while Fr. Jojo was reading a verse form the bible, a ball of fire came down from the Church Bell Tower, it was very nice. (too bad I wasn't able to bring my camera...). Then the mass took 3 hours, with the seven words. Then Fr. Jojo held a baptismal (sort of) celebration for everyone.

Here's the sad part. My relatives, went back to makati yesterday... now, its Mama, Me, ate Pauls and Vinatog here in our house. Sad...

I had a blessed Holy Week. :)

Seeing My Family and Relatives was a big bunch of blessings. :D

And Thank God for this nice Holy Week. :D

Holy Week for me is a recollection of how Jesus Christ died in the cross to save us from our sins... and so we must not make the cross more heavier for him and instead help him carry it. :D

Hope everyone had a blessed Holy Week too. :)

Kamay ni Hesus Pilgrimage

We had our Bisita Iglesia yesterday, with Lorice's family, we left here in our house at 04:00am and we go straight at Kamay ni Hesus Pilgrimage in Lucban, Quezon and got there at around 07:30am, we stayed in the car for some minutes because the rain was slightly pouring its blessings, then when it slowed into a mist, we headed for the church and light candles and say our prayers.

The Pilgrimage is about 200-300steps (couldn't keep the count because I was concentrating on not falling and hitting hard stones), representing the 14 Stations of the Cross with life size stone curved figures, in every station we stopped and pray "the way of the cross", in the middle landing is an Our Lady of Lourdes Image (Patron of the Sick) where everyone can wish prayers for the sick, then at the top is a 50 feet Image of Jesus Christ.

It was a tiring and exhausting way up but the experience is one of a kind. It gave me a gratifying feeling to reach the top, it was sort of a "sakripisyo" that i had for this Holy Week, every step is like a victorious moment for me.

Our next stop is in the Transfiguration Parish in Cavinti, short minutes away from Kamay ni Hesus. Then in The White Church of Pagsanjan, the home of the famous "Step Rite Store".

We were suppose to visit 13 more churches located in Laguna, including one in my birth place, The Parish of St. John the Baptist in Longos, Kalayaan. But My tita's and mama decided to go straight home for we at least finished the 14 stations of the cross in the pilgrimage and everyone was tired and it was getting hotter outside, which is always bad for me.

I've had Bisita Iglesia before, couldn't keep a count because we do it every holy week (except last year). I visited every churches in Laguna. Every church has its own beauty and personality.

We got home past lunch hours.

We went to Ate Chy-Chy's Family Pabasa in the evening and had our dinner there. :D but didn't stayed long like we did before because I was still tired and my muscles were aching.

Tonight we will have a Holy Sacrament Visits, starting here in our St. Gabriel Archangel Parish - Bingonan Parish Church. We'll see different arrangements of the Holy Sacrament.

This really is a busy Holy Week. :D

We plan on Going on another Pilgrimage next year, we're still thinking of the place though. :)



*I'll be posting pictures later. :)

Matalik na Kaibigan (Chapter 01)

“Sandali nalang, magkikita na kami…”

Habang nasa byahe si Astrid, bumabalik ang lahat ng mga alaala nya, yung mga masasaya at mga kalimot-limot na nakaraan nilang dalawa ni Christian. Matagal na din nung huli sila magkita. Madami na ang nagbago, sa kanya, sa buhay nya.

Magkaibigan sila simula pa nung college. May communication pa din naman silang dalawa, kahit na nga hindi sila nagkikita. Masasabi nyang si Christian and pinaka malapit na kaibigan nya. Lahat pwede nya sabihin dito at alam nyang hindi sya papabayaan nito, lalo na pag kailangan nya ng isang kaibigan pag dumadating ang mga panahon na nawawalan na sya ng pag-asa.

Madami nadin silang pinag samahan. Mga bagay na hindi alam ng iba pa nilang mga kaibigan. Basta ang alam ni Astrid, pag nandyan si Christian, Masaya na sya… animado naman sya sa sarili nyang mahal nya si Christian, higit pa sa kaya nitong ibigay. Dahil ang totoo nyan, hanggang sa pagiging matalik na mag kaibigan lang ang meron sila.

Para kaya Astrid, ayos na ang makita nya si Christian sa araw-araw, ang maka-usap ito, makita ang mga ngiti nito, makasabay sa paglalakad, makasama sa pag-gawa ng school works, maging part sya ng buhay nito kahit na sa simpleng paraan lang. May mga bagay din silang napagkasunduan, mga pangako nila sa isa’t-isa, mga plano nila.

Si Christian kasi ang first love ni Astrid... Natututo syang magmahal sa paraang alam nya. Naintidihan nya ang mga meaning ng tinatawag nilang unconditional love dahil sa pagmamahal nya dito at hindi lang sa mga nababasa nya at naririnig nya.

Hindi naman umaasa si Astrid na mamahalin din sya ni Christian. Ang mahalin si Christian ay tama na para sa kanya.

Alam naman ni Christian ang tunay na nararamdaman ni Astrid. Sa katunayan nyan kahit naman kasi hindi sabihin ay nakikita at nararamdaman nya ito. Dumating din naman ang araw na sinabi ni Astrid sa kanya ang tungkol dito.

Ngunit isa lang talagang matalik na kaibigan si Astrid.

Sa paglipas ng panahon, natutunang itago at itanggi ni Astrid ang nararamdaman nya para kay Christian. Nagsimula sya ng panibagong buhay, ang buhay na hindi kasama at kabilang si Christian. Nakayanan nyang harapin ang bawat araw na hindi ito nakikita, natutunan nya din itong alisin sa isip nya, sa tuwing may mga bagay na makakapag-paalala sa kanya kay Christian.
Natutunang kalimutan ng isip nya si Christian.

Sa tuwing masasaktan si Astrid, lagi nya lang sinasabi sa sarili na: “okay lang yan Astrid, kaya mo yan... ikaw pa...” may mga pagkakataon din na gusto nya ng puntahan si Christian at umiyak dito, kagaya ng ginagawa nya dati... Iba kasi pag kay Christian sya umiiyak, may mga simpleng bagay na nagagawa si Christian na malaki ang naitutulong sa kanya.

Iba kasi si Christian sa lahat.

Pero iba na din kasi ngayon... Nag bago na ang lahat...

Hindi na nga nya masayadong kilala si Christian. Hindi nya alam kung katulad pa din ba sya ng dati… Hindi nya din alam kung bakit at papano sya napagbigyan ng pagkakataon na makita itong muli.

At ilang minuto nalang magkikita na ulit sila. Makakasama nya na ulit ito, kahit na sandali lang. Makakausap at makikita ang mga ngiti nito.

“Kamusta na kaya si Christian? Na-miss nya din kaya ako? Katulad pa din kaya sya ng dating Christian na kilala ko...”

Hindi nya alam kung tutuloy pa ba sya o babalik sya pauwi. Habang naglalakad sya papunta sa napagkasunduan nilang lugar kung san sila magkikita, hindi sya makapas-isip ng maayos. Hindi nya alam kung papano sya magre-react, katulad pa din ba ng dati? o yung tipong casual lang silang magkakilala... Hindi nya alam.

“Astrid?”

“Chris?”

Yun pala ang pakiramdam ng matagal mo hindi nakita ang taong pilit kinalimutan ng isip mo at sya namang laman ng puso mo...

May mga bagay din na ipinagbago si Christian. Pero pag iisiping mabuti, ganun pa din sya.Ang Christian na nakilala ni Astrid.

Ang Christian na matalik nyang kaibigan.

Ang Christian na Mahal nya...

Pero may mga bagay na hindi na din magbabago.

Dahil si Astrid pa din ang kaibigan ni Christian.

Ang Matalik na Kaibigan nito...

Cotton Candy Cloud - Puppy on the Run

I saw this cotton candy cloud early this morning when i woke up really late, I was just browsing the net in our balcony and saw the cloud, I find it really cute and took a picture of it.

Here's the Shot

Then after some minutes, when I look up, I saw the shape change into a puppy running. It was really nice so I took another picture and I decided to blog about it. :)

Here's the shot of puppy on the run. :)

Sooooooooo cute! I find this things really nice. :)

I now appreciate more of the little things life offers and this world also does. :)

I don't know, so much has change... and some things has been decided...

Anyway, just really find this pictures cute. :D hayz... the weird old me. :)

Really Sick. :(

I slept at around 4am kanina, then i woke up at around 7am because of a severe tummy ache... then the pain got worse, it was like i can feel the pain everywhere, i wasn't able to take medicines immediately 'coz the drug store wasn't open yet...

The pain is excruciating... I wanted to scream but I can't, because I can't even breathe... and finally at around 11am, i was able to take medicines but the wrose part was there's still so much pain.

Mama ask if I can make it to the hospital, I told her I can't, moving really makes the pain worse... that was the craziest tummy ache I've had in the 25 years of my life... good thing my ate Gladys and my tita Trify were both nurses, they helped ease the pain by telling me what to do and just telling me that the meds were just taking time to take effect, a bost of moral support...

Thank God i felt better and was able to sleep for 2hours. I thought everything is gonna be fine but the worse part wasn't over yet... at around 5pm this late afternoon, i felt like i was gonna have a fever and my temperature went high that you can actually fry an egg in my forehead...

I took meds for the fever and lie down in my bed and sleepiness hit me in an instant.

I thought I was just dreaming, I was hearing voices and sensed that they are worried and tensed. This was the part I hate most, I had a seizure while I was sleeping... Seizures for me were just like an ordinary part of my life, I got used to it...

This day wasn't just my day... Hope tomorrow would be better.
I decided to just post a blog because I can't sleep right after a seizure... the good thing though is that i was not very disoriented after my seizure, usually after i had one, I can't remember what I was doing before. Maybe a slight memory lapse is one of the bad effects this condition gives me.

I'm still thankful, I have my mama and my bakasyonistas here. they're playing scrabble now, with their lola chay.

After this blog, I will try to sleep and pray that tomorrow would be better. :D

Pauls and Pepz officially started their long vacation here in the province. :D happy!!!

Its nice to have them here, though super kulits and more kulits, it's nice. :)

They've been bugging my mama to have an out of town swimming. We don't have plans yet, but I'm sure they'll have what they want. :) (uuwi nanaman silang maiitim) hehehe. :)

Shocks, time really goes by so fast, kasi super laki na nila and i mean literally laki. hahaha. :D

I'll blog about our trips and post pictures. :D

My HP Mini

I had my HP Mini yesterday, my mama bought it for me. :)



Since we're staying in the province and cable channels are not working for me, i decided to have an internet connection. :D good thing my mama get me a wireless net connection. :D yehey!!!



Now, I can blog anywhere and anytime i want. :)

Here's a shot of my HP Mini.

Thank God for Lan, he was the one who suggested that i buy this notebook. :) he's a techy guy who loves gadgets. :) here's his blog site: http://aac-ph.blogspot.com/ check his cool site. :)

You guys can expect loads of blog posts from me. :) specially this coming holyweek, 'coz we'll have a busy holyweek this year. :D