Happy and Blessed Christmas!

Happy and Blessed Christmas to all my Family and Friends. =)

This year has been a tough one, but I know and believe that this too shall soon pass.

Let's all thank God for all the blessings, guidance, grace and forgiveness he has given us. =D

Love,

-Kring

Typhoon Sendong Dilemma: Walang Iwanan

Watching the news lately always makes me feel down and sad. I feel helpless and I was thinking of ways on how I can help, even with the simplest way I can. I saw feeds on my FB page about how Typhoon Sendong devasted Cagayan De Oro and Iligan City.

I saw this blog post from Sir. Dave's Website and the image below was included in the post:

Here are some ways on how you can help:

For your online donation, go to redcross.org.ph/donatenow

Or thru GreenPeso (select Sendong Appeal)

You may also donate to Red Cross thru PayDollar 

Cebuana Lhuillier Pawnshop and 7-11 stores are accepting cash donations

SMS.  Text RED(space)AMOUNT to 2899 (Globe) or 4143 (Smart)

G-Cash.  Text DONATE(space)AMOUNT(space)4-digit M-PIN(space)REDCROSS to 2882

You can donate the following denominations -

Globe: 5, 25, 100, 300, 500 or 1000

Smart: 10, 25, 50, 100, 300, 500 or 1000 

*Info from Donate Now at Philippine Red Cross

3 days to go before Christmas and I know God is too kind to let the people of the Southern Part of the Philippines feel lost and down. I believe that everything happens for a reason even though most of the times, we can never understand the why's and how's.

Let's all pray that we all see the Sun shine again at it's finest. That God give us the strength, hope, love, courage and understanding in what we are all facing each day.

I pray that the souls of the people who passed away and people still missing due to the Typhoon Sendong find rest and peace for eternity together with our Creator. I also pray for their family who feel sadness that not even Wiki can define.

I still feel sad about other Filipinos who suffered great loss, I am sending out a prayer for anyone who needs it.

-Kring

Finally! My Very Own SB Cherry Planner!

I was lucky enough to get my SB Cherry Planner 2012 for only 14 stickers. It was the last day for their 14th birthday promo and I am really glad I got the chance to have my very first SB Planner. =D

I have been wanting to have one for years now, sadly I wasn't able to get one from over the years. I consider this as a gift for myself this coming Christmas. =D

I also love collecting notebooks (and pens too), so this is like a major collection for me. I will start writing down notes and random written thoughts on it starting tomorrow. I was actually thinking if I should just start on the 1st of January next year (maybe). =)

I want a special pen for my very special SB Cherry Planner! I will look for a pen later or maybe on Thursday.

I know it may seem shallow and all, wanting to have one SB Planner, but for someone like me who appreciates simple and little things in life, I consider this as a gift. =)

I should have posted about this some 6 days ago, but I was too busy lately and stress has caught up with me (grabbed me tightly and I don't think that stress is gonna let go that easily).

But still, I am thanking God for all the blessings. =)

One more major blessing to come *fingers crossed* No expectations, but I am hoping.



-Kring

News Update: Sendong Death Tolls

Sendong Death Tolls: 1000+

=|

Let's all take time to pray for the lives lost and for their families... May God give these Filipino people strength and hope to go on every day and keep moving forward.

May God shower everyone with blessings and protection.

Thank you God for everything.

Missing Person: Coleen Grabido

*Image from the Definitely Filipino Post

Name: Coleen Gabrido
Missing since December 6, 2011
Family's Contact info: 0915-9013848

Her child's wish for Christmas is for his mommy to come home.
Please offer your prayers that a child's wish will come true.
Please keep on sharing. This has been verified with the husband.

Details of her disappearance are as follows:
She is a registered nurse and left the house at around 1pm of December 6, 2011 for her IELTS review. The couple didn't have any previous arguments to consider Coleen running away, they also have a 6 year old child to care for and big plans for their family The husband has reported Coleen missing to the police and she was last seen at their Project 6 home.

Before she left their house, Coleen messaged her husband at about 12:40pm on December 6 saying, "Dad, papasok na ako. (Dad, I'm going to school)". That was the last text he received from her. The review center is just 15 minutes away from their home.

Coleen's husband tried to contact her mobile phone upon finding that his wife hasn't returned yet nor replied back to his messages. Her phone was still ringing in December 6 but next day, December 7 after 5pm, she can no longer be contacted.

Coleen is about 5'4" tall with an estimated weight 120-125lbs. The young mom at 26 had with her, her Nine West black shoulder bag, mobile phone, books and wallet. She did not leave their house with any extra clothing to dispute thoughts that she might have run away.

From her review class, Coleen usually arrives at around 10-10:30pm but she did not get to come home since the night of December 6, 2011.

-Moderator Mike at Defnitely Filipino's Page on FB

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Please help her be found. A little sharing of this won't hurt.

Another priceless Christmas present for her family and her kid.

I am praying that she'll be found soon.

Thanks everyone! Have a blessed 2nd Simbang Gabi. =)


-Kring

Thank You God for the Blessings

Dear God,

I know that you have purposely closed another door for me because it is for my own good. However, I am very thankful because you have opened numbers of window so I can still see how good life is.

Thank you for the blessings.

Amen.

=)

-Kring

Edward Cullen to Bella Swan - Breaking Dawn Part One

"It's an extraordinary thing to meet someone who you can bare your soul to and accept you for what you are. I've been waiting, for what seems like a very long time, to get beyond what I am..."

-Edward Cullen, "Breaking Dawn - Part One"

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I watched the movie with my nieces Pepzy and Pauls. The movie was breathtaking and I actually cried when Bella was walking down the aisle. The scene felt so sincere and pure. It was love... Yes, what I like about this movie is how strong love can be. How strong it really is.

Whenever I watch or read The Twilight Saga, it makes me want to believe in love more than I can... to hold onto love and never let go.

To have faith that someday soon, that "One Fine Day" will come true...

I'll be waiting for the second part.

I am really busy these past few weeks and I will just take a short two hours nap and be back to work. I have long overdue tasks to accomplish.

Have a blessed week everyone.

-Kring

Updates on the Missing Persons Posted

It got me thinking, there was an anonymous person who commented on one of the "Missing Person" I have posted asking for updates. However, when I checked the original post over Facebook, I can't seem to find it. I was thinking that maybe the person who posted it deleted the post, for a reason I don't really know.

So here's now what I would do, post an update about these missing persons:

Lolo Matias: Found Already (It was on the news)

Sadelfin Leoncio: I visited the original post and according to his daughter, he is still not found.

Rosita Torres: Found Already (According to her daughter Reselie)

Lolo Marcelo Centes: This one got me thinking, the post was deleted I don't have an updated.

I wanted to thank the person who commented on one of my post, gave me an idea to post updates. I am just hoping that some people are not using this "Missing Person" thing to create yet another FB craze just like the previous not-so-good posts that flooded FB.

Have a blessed weekend everyone.

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Can't seem to find the time to write my thoughts... Maybe in the coming days. The past few weeks had been very tiring and stressful. 

*sigh*

-Kring

Let's Help Lolo Marcelo L. Centes Find His Family

Let's All Help Lolo Marcelo Centes.

Consider this as a Christmas Gift for Him. =)

God bless everyone! =) Thank you.

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By: Reynaldo Guzman Bacosa

Magandang araw po sa lahat!

Ang nasa larawan po ay si Lolo Marcelo Centes, kasalukuyang mag-isang naninirahan sa Bgy. Saraza, Brooke's Point, Palawan. Ayon po sa kanya, siya ay pinanganak nooong January 01, 1910 sa Sorsogon, Sorsogon at sa ngayon ay may mithiing magkaroon ng ugnayan sa kanyang mga kamag-anakan. 

*Image I got from the FB Post.

Dahil na rin po sa katandaan ay mayroon na siyang mga karamdaman. 

Nananawagan kami sa mga taong maaring makatulong sa kanya upang kahit pano ay magkaroon siya ng balita sa kanyang mga kamag-anakan. 

Maraming salamat po!

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This time, it is lolo who wants to find his family. Please help spread the word. Again, I just saw this posted over Facebook. Let's all pray that lolo finds his family and that he'll be happy with the remaining days he has.

Xie-Xie Ni Everyone! =)

-Kring

"Todo mi amor eres tu... Sin ti, Mi vida no tiene sentido..."

♥♥♥

This Goes Out To All Gals Who Deserve That "One True Love"

To All Gals I Care For:

♥ is sometimes powerful that we seem to take ourselves for granted... I have learned that whenever you feel you're not happy with that someone. Set yourself free and keep moving forward. Life is too short to waste on people who don’t care about you... Love and respect yourself.

I have experienced and learned how hurtful it is when ♥ gives you lessons that you should have to accept.

There is more to ♥ than meets your eyes. Be courageous to stand for yourself when no one else will.

-Cecille

Person Missing: Rosita Torres

I saw another post again in FB, this time in Definitely Pilipino's page. Another person is missing again. She is Ms. Rosita Torres. She was last seen November 25, 2011 leaving the premises of Veteran's hospital in Quezon, City. She is wearing a red blouse, black skirt and red slippers.

If ever anyone see her, please bring her to 49 MRT Avenue, Purok Uno New Lower Bicutan, Taguig City

or

Call: 2382799 and look for Mariano Torres / 09206462295 and look for Luz Santos

or

Call: 8548658 and 09286589636 and look for Reselie Estella 

*Image I got from the FB Post by her family.

Please refer to the picture for information.

Let's always try our best to help other people. =)

God bless everyone! =)

-Cecille

Please Help Another Person Missing: Sadelfin Soquiat Leoncio

I know, my blog seems like a page for persons that are missing, but it is never wrong to help. =)

Please help find someone's father, from the FB post that I have seen, his daughter said that he is suffering from Alzheimer's Disease and they need our help, he's been missing since December of 2009.

Please take a look at the image for details of who to contact. Lets all help find: Mr. Sadelfin Soquiat Leoncio

*image from Ms. Baby Grace Leoncio Marana

Thank you so much everyone! =)

God bless. =)


-Cecille

Me Misses Taking Pictures

I have been quite busy lately with work and I realized I missed taking pictures. I will somehow find time to take some good shots by the end of this month. *I promised myself that*

Also, I was browsing through the National Geographic's Photo Contest 2011. I would really like to submit an entry, however, I am not that confident that I'll have a chance to win. Still, I will have that one day and take that shot and submit my own entry. Even though I have like .05 percent of winning, trying doesn't hurt right? =)

I missed doing things I love to, like: sleeping, watching TV and my favorite movies, dining out, having coffee and spending time with my friends. I am now once again proclaiming myself suffering from: "Workaholic Me" Syndrome. Some people think I'm crazy for being one and I don't really care. I remember blogging once about why I love being workaholic. =)

Anyway, back to the "Missing Photography" part. Since I am an avid Yen Baet Fanatic, I plan on taking a night shot of a place here in Manila which is considered historical and submit it on National Geographic. =)

Yen Baet - She is a born and raised Filipina who won National Geographic's Exceptional Experience Photo Contest. Her photos inspires me so much and I would someday love to create a photo portfolio of places I'll be able to visit, only I will take pictures using the long exposure technique. Thank You Ms. Yen, for being an inspiration. =)

I know I have so much to learn, loads of photography gadgets to save for and eventually purchase. Places to see, near and far. I have a very long way to go... But I won't stop until I reached for my dreams and for the achievements that will somehow give my life a little spice.

As for now, I should be going to sleep. I still have loads of work to accomplish. More articles to write and more research to make. I do enjoy and love my job, not only because I earn $$$ from it, but also because I am given a chance to experience the best of both worlds every single day. "Writing" and "Earning a Living".

Toodles! =)


-Kring

Please Help Lola Find Lolo Matias

Please Help: From Reddie Js

I saw this old woman sitting by herself yesterday at the corner of buendia and roxas blvd yesterday. Surprised to see a bond paper pinned in front and back of her dress with a picture of a missing old man, i asked her about it and she said it is her husband who has been missing for two weeks now. I was touched by her integrity and pained to see her looking for him in that manner so i decided to help her too. I asked permission to post her picture here in fb to be shared by others as help for finding Mr. Luis Matias.

*photo by Mr. Reddie Js

Lolo Matias is 78 years old, he displays childish behaviour so do coax him if found and restrain him from leaving ur sight. 

Call any of these numbers immediately 09497763122/ 09326095491 / 09474196145, he lives in #164 Dolores St. Pasay City Brgy 66 Zone 08

Do share this around please at sana mahanap agad si Lolo Luis Matias!

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I saw this on FB just some minutes ago, this was originally posted by Reddie Js, I don't personally know him but lets all thank him for sharing this.

Please do help Lola on finding Lolo Matias, so that Christmas for them will be a lot more happy. Let's pray that she finds him.

Thank you! =)

-Cecille

Gloring and The Greedy Hubby

Given that Gloring has done so much "authentic good things" for Pinas and its people, it is really something that we should appreciate. Yes I fully agree. However, when she was the former President she could have done better and not submit to her "Tibang-Tiba Mike" for a husband who has been very Greedy and Unjust. She could have said a resounding "NO" when he wanted to stash loads of Salapi...

Gloring is sick, yes accepted. But no one can blame most Pinoys who have endured and suffered truly with all their not-so-good doings from before...

We can pray for her condition, that she gets well. But she and her husband must pay the price of being greedy and unworthy of the power vested upon them...

-Kring

I Take Back My Word: Mr. Marquez

I have posted on one of my previous blog post that I am congratulating Marquez for proving himself to be a good boxer. Oh, well... I AM TAKING IT ALL BACK.

I watched the match over and over and over again. I have noticed that he has been foot stomping Manny Pacquiao for some nth time. Hahaha! Really funny 'coz I actually thought that he really did fought a good fight. I know and understand that there may be times that a boxer may "accidentally" step his opponent's feet, but a lot of nth times is not just by "accident" you cheating fighter.

*got the image from a page in Facebook

Now the question is: "Is that how desperate you are Mr. Marquez???" Common! You can do better than cheating your way to winning right?

And even if the announcer was obviously on your side and not telling the whole world how you are feet stomping PACMAN, I would have to say that you defined who you are not just as a boxer but also a a person...

Now, I AM PROUD TO SAY: "CONGRATULATIONS PACMAN!!! You really are PINOY's CHAMP!"

So to other fighters who wants to bring it on, do your best to win without cheating. =)

Manny "PACMAN" Pacquiao is ♥

-Kring

A Blessed and Happy Week for Everyone

‎"Whenever you feel that the heaviness of the world is too much to carry, always keep in mind that in your every single step, God is by your side cheering you can do it and that he will never leave your side..."

Remember, when you asked God to make you a strong person, he creates those little bumps in your road because he doesn't want you to be just strong, but also to be a better person, learn of humility and be thankful that when you get through all the struggles, you learn and you appreciate all the blessings you receive.

You value life.

-Cecille

A blessed and happy week to everyone. =)

Proud to be a Filipino: Congratulations again to "PACMAN" and to Marquez

There could've been various reasons why Manny won this fight. First thing was that "Marquez" was the only word you can hear from the announcer. Second, most probably is that Manny was really good (I never once doubt his fighting skills), he scored really creamy points... However, I also give my acknowledgement to Marquez, he did really good with that fight...

Congratulations to both Filipinos and Mexicans. =)

I still ♥ Manny Pacquiao with all my ♥!!! =D

Me and My Family watching the Pacquiao vs. Marquez III

-Kring

Too Much to Write, So Little Time...

I have loads of pending blogs that I would love to write about. There's been so much going on inside my head but time is not too friendly with me. I will find spare time to post blog hopefully later tonight or early tomorrow. I'm getting a little exhausted not because I am physically tired... Maybe I've been thinking too much lately.

I'll be back soon.

-Kring

For My First Love *13 Years Ago*

That awkward moment when:

You're conversing with the guy who made your heart beat that "Boom Badoom Boom Boom Badoom Boom Boom" for the first time 13 years ago. You don't know what to say and after that conversation you feel like "What the heck was I talking about? Felt like crap"

Hahaha!!! =P


-Cecille

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away. Beatin' like a drum and it's coming your way.

 ♥♥♥

My Last 3 HP Movie Story

I have always loved Harry Potter from way back my younger years. I have finished reading all the HP books and I have re-read them for the nth time and I lost count of exactly how many times I get excited reading about "The Boy Who Lived".

I was about to hit the sack earlier than usual but it was HP6 on HBO some few minutes ago and I remembered watching that movie alone 2010 I guess. I always feel sad when I get to see Professor Dumbledore get struck by the Avada Kedavra curse and fall on the clock tower of Hogwarts. I even cried the first time I watched the movie, well... I still feel like crying whenever I see that part. I know that it has to happen because Harry Potter should fight Voldemort on his own right? with Ron and Hermoine and friends' help of course.

Someone very dear to me gave me a copy of the HP7 book and I am still very thankful about it. He was the third person who gave me a book. Myself first, my Mom second and Him third. I love reading books by the way so people who give me books are very special to me, especially if they know which book to give me. =)

Back to the HP topic. So, I watched HP movies mostly by myself and I actually meant to see those movies alone. I think maybe it's because that movie was really dear to me so I would like to concentrate on parts and magic spells and the amazing effects.

The HP5 movie, I have decided to see it with the same someone who gave me the HP7 book. That was one of the most memorable movie date I had. I can still remember the feeling of holding someone else's hand while walking and feeling the sunshine inside my heart. I know he is part of my "Past Folder" now but it doesn't hurt to remember a really genuine happy feeling I have felt before, that was also the day I gave him a silver bracelet, it meant so much to me...  He meant a great deal to my heart and words will never be enough to express how much I have loved him... Not even me, who is a writer can never come up with words to further elucidate how that someone means to me...

The truth is, whenever I get to see HP movies I always remember Him... well, I always do... Some of the times whenever a memory related to him is about to process in my head, I immediately push those memories away and lock it on my "Past Folder"... That is what I usually do for now because I have to...

Anyway, the first part of the HP7 was an epic failure for me as I wasn't able to watch it on the theater. It was my fault so no one is to blame except for me. I got over it and learned my lesson. =)

The second part of the HP7 I got to watch with D. I don't really know what's on my mind that time. I was afraid of watching that movie with someone because I personally thought that I should just watch it by myself to prevent getting hit by a breaking heart curse... but still it turned out just fine. However, it felt different. When I watched the HP5 movie with that someone, I wasn't really able to concentrate well. I was really happy to see Harry, DA's, Order of Phoenix and the Death Eaters duel without saying any curses... Flying Orders in a White Smoke while the DE's in Black. I just remembered how sunny it felt that moment.

HP7 (last part) was a totally different one though... I would have to give my credits to Snape 'coz he really made my tears fall and I was happy because I remembered the parts on the story, the spells, the dueling scenes... It was amazing. D, well. He fell asleep. I completely understand him though. We didn't really plan on watching HP7 that super late evening, he had other plans that day and it just suddenly came up to us that we watch HP7. I had a good conversation with D, a good laugh and some good pictures taken with him too. D, he never fails to make me laugh and he is a person full of surprises, whether it may be good or not-so-good.

I didn't blog about this to make comparisons... of which was better. Because watching HP movies with that Two Different Men are both nice. Totally different feeling though... One warm and the other comforting...

I can never understand what Life has given me... I don't expect too. Life is far too complex to understand that even the most geniuses of human cannot explain Life, in lows and highs...

What I do now is to be just thankful to God, for everything he has given me in my life. Because I believe that those things made me a better person.

That Someone, he had tested me and how tough I am to survive hurt and pain and sadness... I can now face being alone, I still feel scared and sad but now I know I can... Because of Him, I know I can Love far deeply than my heart can and that my heart can withstand hurt more than I thought I can...

D, he made me believe in myself again... I remember way back months ago when he was still my professor, I used to tell him that I don't know if I can do this and that and he would always tell me: "You can Cille, I know that you can..." he tells me that and I can feel that he really do believe in me and what I can do.

These Two Men, I have to give credit because they made me who I am now... a better person who can now accept things may they be good or not-so-good...

I still believe in Miracles... that One Fine Day will come again...

I miss that someone still, but for now... I can face day without him. Not because I have D with me... but because I am stronger now. Stronger because I survived pain and Even much Tougher because I now believe in Myself again...



-C

My Birthday Thank You

The 28 years of my existence is like a roller coaster ride, full of ups and downs. However, what really matters is the excitement and the fun and the priceless feeling that you conquered and face your fears so you can enjoy the ride. =)

To my Family, my Friends and the People who have been a part of my Life. Thank you so much for the love, care, support and understanding that you all have given me. For the lessons I have learned from each and everyone who have been a part of this wonderful ride.

To our Creator who always makes me strong and steady. Thank you will never be enough. =)♥♥♥


-C

“I’m Proud of My ♥, it’s been Played, Stabbed, Cheated, Burned and Broken, but Somehow Still Works…”


—The Notebook

The Heart Angel

I used to tell someone that I don't make a wish anymore... The wishes I used to make never came true and I guess I gave up on making such things...

Now that it's just hours away from my special day (I don't have plans to celebrate, I haven't celebrated that day for 3 years now...), I was thinking of making another wish, a wish that I am praying will somehow come true...

I know that most of the times, people make wishes that are quite impossible. However, I am hoping that no matter how impossible my wish is, I'll be given a chance to finally be able to find that "Yīgè zhēnzhèng de àiqíng..."

*fingers crossed*


-C

Selfish... Insensitive... Childish...

The title says all about me. Yes, I won't deny the fact that I am selfish, insensitive and very childish. I am always the kid who have difficult time understanding things and people, but maybe that is because they don't understand me too...

There are only a few people who give their best to understand me. Just 3 people. I thank God for letting them be a part of my life and vice versa.

I know why sometimes I act like someone who is indifferent... weirdo... freak... because that is how people see me.

I'm tired of some things. I really am.

Acting brave when I feel so weak and down, for them not to judge me or tell me I am too coward and too emotional. I am tired of being the best when actually, the things I do doesn't even matter. Most of the times, they just tend to see my faults and flaws, it makes me feel like hell.

I am a person who will never be perfect and no matter how nth times I tried to be the best of who I can be, it'll never be enough...

I have learned how to live my life alone and I think I handled it better than my life now. I want save some love and care for myself when no one seems to do so. I have been giving my very best efforts and been giving almost everything... and still, it doesn't matter...

I'll start living my life the way I did like almost a year ago... I can go back to living that way... I know I can...

I need to love myself because no one else will do that for me...


-C

♪♪♪ I Need You Tonight ♪♪♪

I remember this Nick Carter song from way back my High School Days and I heart this song so much. I used to listen to this song whenever I feel sad just like now.


♪♪♪ I need you tonight, I need you right now, I know deep within my heart, It doesn’t matter if it’s wrong or right. I really need you tonight... ♪♪♪


-C ♪♪♪

I Am Now an Official Pottermore Member!!!

I am so happy I feel like crying as I am now an official member of J.K. Rowling's Pottermore site!!! =D

Thank you so much to my little wonderful sweet sister Edil. I can never thank you enough. =) I'll take you out for a date on the next few days. =)

Coffee, cheesecake and a fun conversation for the two of us. Miss you sweets! =) ♥♥♥

-C ♥♥♥

Wo keyi renshou tongku he beishang, yuanyin hen jiandan ji: "Wo Ai Ni..."

*wink*

♥♥♥

Total Silence

Can I have a single moment of Silence???

These noises are really becoming very difficult to deal with... My temper is really rocketing skyward! faster each and every minute.

*upset. very much upset...*

Wo Gandao Hen Shangxin...

Wo zhidao, jishi ni bu gaosu wo, ni shi man man li wo jian xing jian yuan. Ni zhen de bu ai wo shouxian he ai yongyuan buneng bei yaoqui jiyu de huibao.

Wo zheyang zuo wo ziji cuo zai xiangxin ni momingqimiao dui wo you tongyang de ganjue. Zhe dou shi wo de cuo, yinwei wo bu ying gai duoluo wei ni daxia wo de xin jiuxing le, zaici...

Wo xianzai man man di xuexi guanyu fangzhi ziji qu fujin de ni he wo de xin geng shang... Wo yue lai yue qiang de mei yitian liushi. Wo xianzai qiang zou li ni yuan qu... Wo zou dao li ni yiqian keshi dang ni da dianhua gei wo, wo zhuanshen pao huilai xiang ni... Duome yuchun de wo...

Wo xianzai yijing xiading le juexin, wo jueding likai ni zou... Zhe shi zuihou de...

Long Exposure Shots

I got to take my much awaited long exposure shots last night. The skies are velvet black but no rain falls, a little cold but it's exactly what I need.

Here are some of the shots:

Here's another:

And another one:

I have always been afraid of heights but I managed. I just can't fully concentrate because I can see cars passing by under the overpass.

My bestfriend Eddilyne told me at around 03:35am that an artist's work projects how he/she feels. I know the lights and all made the pictures lively and I know somehow the shots were a bit gloomy. It was a sad Saturday Night for me...

I'll wait for some of my friends Jeck, Melvin and Eunice to ask me out on a Photowalk again. Just to take my mind away from thinking too much. I need photography now more than ever... *sigh*

Here's the settings I used last night: (I also used a tripod).
Shutter Speed: 20"
ISO: 400
White Balance: Incandescent
F: 14

No Matter How Many nth Times this ♥ Goes Broken... It'll Still Believe in that One True ♥...

Missing Long Exposure Photography

It’s been days since the typhoon “Falcon” soaked the Philippines again. I had been wanting to take a long exposure shots but the heavy rains prevented me from doing so and take that light trails from cars passing by C5 Road. I am hoping and praying that the rain would just stop and give me some time with Marley (my Nikon D3000) tonight at the C5 - Intersection Overpass.

*fingers crossed*

I took this picture like months ago, I really miss taking pictures… *sigh*

Turning Tables

♫ So I Won't Let You Close Enough to Hurt Me... No, I Won't Ask You, You to Just Desert Me... I Can't Give You what You Think You Gave Me... It's Time to Say Goodbye to Turning Tables... Under Haunted Skies I See, Where ♥ is Lost, Your Ghost is Found... I've Braved a Hundred Storms to Leave You... As You Try, No, I Will Never be Knocked Down... ♫

-Adele

This song just beat all the crap out of me... *sigh*

I just have to be stronger now and just be brave enough to leave...

"Than..." by: Kring

I used to be a contributor, then become a writer and an editor for our school newspaper some years ago, UPGRADE the Official Newsletter of Mapua IT Center had become my family and I miss our adviser Ma'am Neds, my friends and schoolmates whom I get to work with for quite some time. =)

I saw an old copy of UPGRADE and it was dated from way back late 2005. Volume 2, Issue 7, December 2005 and it made me laugh to see one old article-like from me. This made me laugh because I remembered funny, happy, not-so-happy and sad moments about a friend whom I wrote about. =P

"Sorry naman Dan, natawa ako dito. Promise!* hahaha! =P

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It was exactly one hundred days, eight hours, seven minutes and fifteen seconds from the very first moment that I have seen you sitting at the student lobby...

You were the first person who caught my attention. I don't know but there's something about you that makes me keep on looking and staring. I actually hated myself because I kept looking at where you are and it's funny 'coz I saw you glancing back at me. But then maybe, my mind was just playing tricks on me. (I also hated manong guard for telling me to take my shoes off the bench while browsing into my new student handbook and enjoying my little moment of just plainly staring at you... hmpt!) I told myself "hmmm... pwede... pwedeng pwede..." but to tell you frankly, you're not my type! Well, not my usual type... pero pwede...

My first impression of you? "Suplado".

After that special moment in the student lobby, I can't help but wonder and think of you. That sudden moment  I glanced at you, it felt so strange (sabi nga ni Harry Potter "it was like magic!"). And it really was! Your eyes were saying things that I can't understand, and maybe, I never will.

I was thinking of a way to know you. (Kahit nga pangalan mo lang okay na eh.) I never thought that we were  actually classmates (kala ko kasi sa School of IT ka... YES! sa MITc ka pala! Para akong tumama sa Lotto!). Hehehe.

The first conversation that we had? At the East Mezzanine (sa labas ng CISCO room). I remembered someone asked you if you belong to the CISCO 01 class and thank God you do! And you know what else? you actually sat right beside me! (hay... how kilig to the bones I felt deep inside...) From then on, we became friends. My newly-found friend.

I tried so hard to deny it to myself and to others how I am starting to fall for you. But I just can't help it. Everything about makes me fall for you even harder each day. Your personality, your attitude, the way you smile every time you see me (kahit na minsan puyat ka), the way you make me smile in return ('coz its been so long since the last time I smiled that way, so long that I actually forgotten how to), how artistically gifted you are, how we both love Final Fantasy, when you sat right next to me in the hallway while waiting for our professors (and you'd tell me how your day was the day before). Those were the simple things that made me fell for you.

I had fun when I get to tease you and tell you "Bakla ka kasi..." and you'll ask me "Mukha ba talaga akong bakla?" And I'd say "Oo" seriously. Hehehe... When I got the chance to "torture you" as you always told me, when I beat you up so badly, when you got nervous because you thought I'm mad at you, and when you tell me you're sorry because you were a little late replying my text messages. In short, I like it when you do such things for me. It means so much...

I like it when you brought my things for me, when I tell you "Uy, bitbitin mo na yung bag ko..." and you'll suddenly bring it for me, when you opened the doors for me. It was really nice of you to do simple things for me. Simple yet meaningful...

I love it when you'll suddenly look into my eyes and stare at me for as long as you want (haven't you noticed that I can't fight it? How stupid can you be?) Do you remember the time I told you how beautiful your eyes were? They're like the stars in a very stormy night and the most adorable pair of eyes I've ever seen in my whole life, well, it's true...) And also how sweet you smell... and that it lingers...

When you told me stupid and funny things that made me laugh so hard and the way you laughed in return, when I blurted you some jokes (kahit na nga minsan eh corny, okay pa rin sa'yo).

I always look forward to another school day with you, though it may not seem that way.

When I am not with you I always wanted to make lambing... but when I'm with you... I just don't know what to do. So I end up making your day miserable and horrible. Sometimes we end up being offended by each other (di ba nga sabi mo matampuhin ako).

When you smile and say hi to other girls in school, I felt jealous. I know I should not feel that way simply because I don't have the right to feel that way. But I still feel jealous and you know what my defense mechanism is? I don't talk to you for a while. When you're sitting next to those girls and you looked at me, I always tried to snub you. (Hmmppp!) I don't know if those gestures I showed you sent you the signals or if it was able to reveal even simple signs to you (exagge noh? Kahit na!).

"When you try to look into my eyes, I don't want that moment to end for I want to cherish it forever..."

Ika nga ni kumpareng Christian Bautista:

No one ever saw me like you do.
All the things that I could add up to.
I never know just what a smile was worth
But YOUR EYES see everything
Without a single word

"Coz there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothin' in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me...

"Yang mga tingin mong yan... nakaka-irita na nakaka-kilig..."

It's weird when I always want you to look at me that way forever and I'll tell you "wag mo nga akong tinitingnan ng ganyan"sor (but how super duper kilig naman I am...) There are times when you're so irritating and you'll reach for me and say "sorry na po..." and I'll tell you "wag mo nga akong hahawakan!" (hmmp, eh if I know, gusto ko naman yun! How stupid nga naman can I be di ba?)

Sometimes when people fall in love, they tend to act so stupid. But that stupidity is just one of the signs that we really are in love. Stupid or not, "I know how I feel for you..."

 I never had the intention of writing this article. It's not even because I do not want to cram when my deadline is nearly approaching, or to just come up with a good article for the coming issue of Upgrade. Every word in this article came straight from my heart and I never had any hesitations in writing each and every word of it, and I never will.

I value friendship more than all my friends think I do. Writing about how I feel through this article, may result in any of these two things: I may lose YOU... or I may have YOU... Forever... Forever... Forever...

Am I really ready for the circumstances? I don't know. For me, letting the person know how you feel towards him is really important. We may never know what could happen di ba? and no one could even know the ending of this ka-kilig-kilig story of mine...

Some say that this world is a battlefield. You must know how to survive or else, you'll lose it all. It's the same thing with falling in love. we love because it's in our nature. Sabi nga nila "fight for what you really feel", but once you did fight for it we must not expect for things to come our way.

I don't know if I could ever cross the boundaries of friendship and love (once more) and it's for me to decide. Will I ever set my feelings on the line? Are you really worth the pages of this article? Am I ready to fall so fast and fall so hard? But knowing in the end, I may fell flat on the ground, still, my answer will be a resounding YES.

I am very sure that you will read all of the words incorporated here as it all came from my mind and heart (sa UPGRADE pa, sosyal ito! Ibang level!). I guess this is the only way for me to let you know. I know that I am not perfect and will never be. I don't know how you would react, either you smile or be shocked (hoy! OA na pag sumigaw ka pa ha! Hehehe!). People around us - friends, professors, classmates or ka-MITc natin will surely react and voice-out opinions. PAKIALAM KO NAMAN, MAHAL KITA eh!!!

And the best thing about you? "YOU bring out the best in ME..."

When I'm with you, I feel like there's nothing that I can do. It feels like i can conquer the whole world. Para na nga akong si CISCO Woman eh. I was never greater in CISCO 01 class until recently (nakita mo naman ang grades ko noh, tumataginting na 1.25. Magkatabi kasi tayo dun sa room na yun eh). Whenever I'm into something that I think is a bit impossible for me to overcome, I know you're always there for me to hold on to (oh, kinilig ka naman). Sabi mo nga "Kaya natin yan!"

Siguro hangga't hindi pa napa-publish itong Upgrade, I'll just cherish the moments I've been with you. For now kasi, I can have you every time I want to (uto-uto ka kasi... biro lang). Sana ganyan ka nalang palagi noh? But we both know that things do change. Nothing stays the same. If the time comes that you have decided to change, I am sure that it will be very hard for me. I may never show you how those changes would hurt me but I want you to remember that deep inside, I am hurting...

If goodbye will be the result for my undeniable revelation, so be it... "I would rather lose someone who was never really mine right from the start, than to have you but not have you at all..."

Sigurado ako by now alam mo na... Makakatingin pa kaya ako sa'yo, sa maga mata mo, tulad ng dati? SANA...

Kahit saan pa tayo makarating, nandito lang ako palagi para sayo. You may never realize, that right from the start, I have always been here for you... Kasi nga Mahal Kita...

Whatever your decisions may be, right after reading this article, i will accept it because that's just the way it is. But I want you to keep this simple message in your mind and in your heart:

"Even if I feel this way for you, it will never change the fact that we are friends and our friendship is stronger THAN, we both think it is..."

Please hold on...


22nd of April 2005 18:35:15


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To Dan,

Hahaha! We are still friends now. Not that close like we were before, but still we're friends... =) reading through this made me laugh! Hahaha!

I pray you find that one love you deserve. Stay happy! =)

-Kring

Happy Papa's Day Pa! ♥

Dear Pa,

Thank you for everything that you have done for us... for the Love, the Care, the Understanding and your Sacrifices... I may not be the best or the most perfect daughter, but still I will Love You, Mama and Kuya to Infinity and Beyond! =D

Love You Pa! ♥

Happy Dad's Day to My Bestfriends Dads. Bes and Panget. Your fathers have raised and guided you well that you can now share with me the lessons you have learned from them. =)

To Edil's and Kuya Ric's Dads! Happy Dad's Day to them! =D

D, Happy Dad's day to your Dad. =) I know... words will never be enough but I will stand by your side forever, 'til the dark clouds fade away. Thank You for All the Things I have Learned from You. =)

Jan, Happy Papa's Day kay Papa mo. =) Hugs! and to Lan, Happy Papa's Day kay Papa mo. =)

To All My Families (Titos, Cousins) and Friends who are Great Dads! Happy Dad's Day. Thank you for everything. =) ♥

Get Well Soon to My Loves Tso Oscar! =) ♥ and to My Tatay Tso Cesar! *tay, pengeng pera?* ♥ and to my Tito's who are now in Heaven, I will send you all my ♥. =D


Love,
Cil =)

Every Little Thing

♫ I Wish I Could Be, Every Little Thing You Wanted... All the Time... I Wish I Could Be, Every Little Thing You Wanted... and Every Little Thing You Wanted, All the Time... This Time... ♫

I heart this song by Dishwalla.

A gloomy Saturday morning for me. Anyway, it's okay.

I Feel Helpless

My Heart Breaks into Nano Pieces Everytime I See You Sad and it Hurts Me even More when there's Nothing I Can Do About it but Smile, for You not to Feel the Heavy Burden...

-Sana Math, Building Construction Design, Cisco Networking or Programming nalang ang Palagi Mo Pino-problema...

Because most probably, I can do something about it...

*feels a little crappy again*

Yesterday by: Leona Lewis

I heard this song on my Kuya's iPod and I Love it! =)

♫ Yesterday ♫

Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side
When we have so much in store tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories I'll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never played
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

You always used to say I should be thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds or at least how the story goes
(But I never believed them till now)
I know I'll see you again I'm sure no it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face but they can't take yesterday

[Repeat Chorus]

I thought our days would last forever
(But it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
Now I can believe that I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

[Repeat Chorus]

All the broken dreams take everything
But they can never have yesterday


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Enjoy! =)

Don't Walk Away

"Don't Walk Away, See I Just Can't Find the Right Words to Say... I Tried but All My Pain Gets in the Way... Tell Me What I Have to Do So You'll Stay... Should I Get Down on My Knees and Pray? How Can I Stop Losing You and How Can I Begin to Say... When There's Nothing Left to Do but Walk Away... I Close My Eyes, Just to try and See You Smile One More Time but its been So Long Now All I do is Cry. Can We Find Some Love to Take this Away... 'Cause the Pain Gets Stronger Everyday. How Can I Begin Again and How Am I to Understand? When There's Nothing Left to Do but Walk Away... See, and Why All My Dreams been Broken, I Don't Know Where We're Going, When Everything We Said and Been Done Now... Don't Let Go, I Don't Wanna Walk Away..."

-Michael Jackson

DPP - Digital Photographer Philippines on a High

Digital Photographer Philippines will be celebrating its 5th Anniversary Party on the 4th of June, Bonifacio High Street and I was invited (super glad about it) to attend by one of my TeamD3K's Chief and I am never gonna miss this event!

It'll be super cool raised to the nth power awesomeness! =) I will be going with my co-teammates and I promised myself that this is gonna be the start of me being active on my photography team. I felt that I a was not good enough before to be joining our EB's though I know that every members are welcome to attend, I somehow feel that I need to learn more. =)

I now feel much comfortable with some of the photography knowledge I know so I think I'm ready now and I have been wanting to meet my teammates. =D it'll be nice to spend time with them and have fun! I'm sure it'll be a blast!

So I can't wait for June 4th to come. =D

Mama Is Love

The greatest and the most perfect gift God can give us is our Mama. Their love is unconditional, pure, sweet and forever. Mama's are like the bandages that can heal our wounds from playing too much when we were just little kids, they're like sweet candies that gives warmth to our sweet toot h and they're like the best pillow we have when we feel sick.

My Mama is like a gummy bear, because I can have the sweetest and softest jellys that can make me smile when I am down. She is my strength, my serenity, my home, my guide and most of all, my Mama stands by me through and through.

She cooks the best Adobo in the whole wide world! She loves me and my brother and my papa for who we are and we LOVE HER too! =D

My Mama is my best partner in crime! because she always backs me up like every mom will. My Mama accepts me for being the most *tamad*, *maldita* and *sungitera* daughter that I am. =D

Mama's are even better than the best!

I Love You Ma! =D Thank you for everything. =D

Happy Mama's Day to All Mama's I Know! =)

Love,
-Cil =D

My Blurry Nikon D3000 Viewfinder's Epic Failure

Scenario: I asked Melvin to please set my Nikon D3000 (which I named Marley) on his tripod as I wanted to take a shot of the wine glasses on the bar of the Cong's Balay Restaurant and I didn't bring my pod because I am so darn lazy. =P Melvin set up my camera and when I asked him to take the shot for me because the pod was too high for my line of sight and I can't take a look at my view finder as I was not given a perfect 5'7 height, he suddenly and puzzledly blurted out:

Melvin: "Ces, why is it that your camera is a little blurry?" *puzzled expression on his face*
Me: "Huh? No, my viewfinder is just fine... try to focus it on something and it'll get clear" *now I am nervous*
Melvin: "Really, your camera is blurry"

Now Melvin asked my friend Jeck:

Melvin: "Jeck, try to take a look at Cecille's camera for yourself because maybe it's just my eyes that's unclear."
Cecille: "Hey, my camera is just fine!" *me hiding my confusion*
Jeck: "Okay, I'll take a look"

Then after Jeck took a look at my viewfinder:

Jeck: "Your camera is really blurred..." *I know, they are now both serious about this issue and I am very nervous*
Melvin: "Maybe you didn't adjust your diopter"
Jeck: "Yeah, maybe your diopter doesn't have the right setting" *me even more confused, I don't even know what a diopter is*
Me: "Huh? I don't even know what's a diopter, what is it anyway?" *looking from Melvin to Jeck and Jeck to Melvin*

Melvin then adjust something in the side of my viewfinder and take another look at my viewfinder:

Melvin: "There! It's now very clear!" *he is now about to laugh and I am now seeing myself looking like a stupid fool.*

Jeck took a look himself and:

Jeck: "Ces, now your camera is very clear!" *I know that look on Jeck's face he is definitely and 110 percent super mega over laughing inside!!! and I know he's just too kind to tell me:*

"Ces, You're really stupid!" =D

So, I take a look at my viewfinder... and guess what I said:

Me: "WOW!!!! It's sooooo SUUUUPPPPPEEERRRRR CLEAR!!! It's like I am looking through a magnifying glass!!!" *but what I'm trying to really say is looking through a microscope*

And I am not satisfied, I took a look again and gosh, it is really a 100 percent super clear! =D

Melvin: "Ces, read your manual" *I know he's mocking me already* =P

I really did read my manual, from the first page to the last but I never recalled ever reading about the Prince Charming Diopter... Really. =D

Melvin: "How where you able to take decent shots from before?"
Me: "Talent" =P

Hahaha! If not for the two of these men, I will never know that my Nikon D3000 (Marley) and my eyes can be enhanced and can even be better than my 20/20 vision eye sight! =D

Hahaha!!!!

That was the story of the Mysterious Blurry Nikon. =D

My Holy Week - Holy Monday

Holy Monday:

Sometimes and I do mean sometimes, I get too tired. I am trying my best to make a single day for me fine and calm... I am NOT perfect and I get pissed off too! I try to be nice and helpful of others... So Please, try not bug the heck out of me... Please...

It's Holy Monday already...

My Sacrifice for this Holy Week? "I will not say a word until I am asked something... I will not get mad over crappy things... I will not say too straightforward things that may Hurt other people... I will not think silly things..."

Got that? Good if you do.

Try to think of things too. Not just about you but also of others... This is not a hate note, I am just trying to point out what's on my mind now... My Holy Week started really well, please people... Don't make it an Epic Failure for me...

*sigh*

My Photo-Essay for Life Force Magazine

I saw this photo-essay thing on Life Force Magazine and found out that these photographs being send by other photographers from all parts of the globe help loads of people through the charities they support. =)

I have always been wanting to help others, it would be one dream come true for me if I get to help less fortunate people around me through the means I know. I love photography and how it helps me see the beauty of every single being in this world.

I have been wanting to send Life Force Magazine's Editor about how I want to send an entry for their photo-essay and last night, I did! The first step that i did was to post a photo that I took from our Fort Santiago Photowalk weeks ago and then I e-mailed the editor and I was glad that I immediately receive a response. =)

This is the photo I send them:

I told the editor in my mail that I wanted to take pictures of how Filipinos celebrate the Lenten Season, commonly known as the Holy Week here in PH. =) The editor said that they liked my photo. =) and they will require me to send them 10 shots and if they liked it, they'll ask for more pictures that will complete my photo-essay ala "Holy Week in the Philippines"

I am really excited about this and I will start shooting in Quiapo today, I'll be going there in a few minutes with my family who supports me through and through. When I got the reply this early morning, I immediately inform my family and friends about it and I would like to thank them for backing me up on this.

I will personally thank my Mama, my cousins and my good friends: Lan, Edil, D, Kuya Ric, Ate Shy and everyone for the encouragement and for believing in the little and simple things I can do for others. =) Also, for the Editor of Life Force Magazine, thanks for the appreciation. I will give my very best for this. =)

Thanks and Super Hugs for everyone!

Also, Thank God for this opportunity and for the blessings. =D

365 Photo Project | Day 18

Day 18 | "Mapuan Verified"

Mapua Main (Intramuros).

I got the chance to go back to the old and strong Mapua in Intramuros. =D

I accompany my niece Pauline because she needed to pay her reservation there to secure a slot on the Civil Engineering course she'll be taking this year.

Another Mapuan in the family. =P hahaha.

When we got to the Guard House, I gave my Mapua Makati ID and the guard was like: "Ito pala ang ID nyo sa makati" and I answered: "Opo"

He didn't give us a Visitor's ID, instead he just let us pass and put a seal that says: "Mapuan Verified"

Hahaha! May ganun palang ka-echosan ngayon dun! Kaya sa mga ka A141 blockmates/tropa/friends ko, tara sa na Intramuros at tayo ay bumili ng t-shirt! Kumain sa renovated na canteen at tumambay sa gym. =P

I'll be going back with Pauline on the 30th for her formal enrollment and her mathplus summer enrollment too.

Good luck Pauls! Kaya mo yan. E-ready na ang mga daliri sa kalyo, ang mata sa puyat, ang brain cells sa mga tanong na: "Napag-aralan ba namin toh dati sa HS???!!!???"

Strive for the Fame and the Glory of MIT. =)

365 Photo Project | Day 17

Day 17 | "Confused... In Deep Thinking... Sad..."

Another MS Paint Masterpiece by Yours Truly. =D

It was a day full of negativeness... Can't elaborate more on how nega I felt that day.

I think all my questions and all the confusions I have that day was now finally answered and all are very clear to me now.

I guess everything and everyone do change and it's reality. All we have to do is accept those changes.

Things happened and we get to learn from them and we move on... Every day is a learning process.

Decisions are made because it is vital...

365 Photo Project | Day 16

Day 16 | "Mapua Makati"

It was the second time I went back to my old home after a few years. It felt like I was home again. You'll feel the comfort and the same old at ease feeling.

The lobby was the same except for the new walls and some few renovations, same nice and accommodating staff. Same old simple but brilliant minds around. (I think it was enrollment week that time so students are relaxed).

I miss the place and the people. My friends are not there anymore, but the feeling of being home was more than enough to fill up the empty spaces that was present within myself after some few years.

I'll see you soon Mapua. =)

365 Photo Project | Day 15

Day 15 | "Last Coffee with Him"

It was a good night and early morning. A not so good day that ended really okay and happy.

Anyway, the title of the photo says it all... I don't want to elaborate... It'll only make me sad, more sad...

=,(

365 Photo Project | Day 14

Day 14 | "Kembotbels"

Hahaha!

With My GFF's Edil and Nette. I miss them soooooo much!!!!

We 3 thought that Monday was the day we were suppose to get our Grades from school. It turned out that Tuesday is the scheduled date for us to get our final grades. =)

It was a fun-fun day! Took pictures with Edil, Nette, My Baby Bro Leuther and Alvin.

We get to wear these really cutesy hats! hahaha! Me and Edil plan to buy these for us. =D

I also got to watch the movie that I would love to see with a person that I miss a lot.

Anyway, this was a good day for me.

I Miss My Friends Already... *sigh*

365 Photo Project | Day 13

Day 13 | "RC3"

Meeting Place: SB in Market, Market
Photowalk Location: Fort Santiago, Intramuros Manila
Dinner: Cibo, Greenbelt 5 in Makati
Late Coffee: SB in 32nd Street, global City

Sunday Photowalk. I got to see Mapua, the old and strong one in Intramuros. We get to see baluartes, schools, churches in Intramuros.

I once again got to see one of my Fave Churches in the PH (The Manila Cathedral), there was a wedding being held there, I really wanted to take a look at the event but the church doors were closed. Too bad...

Then We headed to Fort Santiago, I was really excited to go there and also spending time with special people is priceless and this photowalk turned out to be really fun and wonderful.

Then we had dinner in Cibo, *don't really like the food, but I had a good conversation with two of the most amazing men* =)

Then we had late coffee in SB in 32nd St, Global City. Coffee + Good Conversation + Lovely People = Serenity

I'm not sure when is the Second Photowalk for us, but I am hoping that it'll be soon. =)

I miss them already.

Thanks to Kuya Ric and Sir. D for a wonderful day.

365 Photo Project | Day 12

Day 12 | "Bulag, Pipi at Bingi"

*concept by: Pauline Gracia (my niece)*

We got home late from Mimi's Grad Party and I was checking Marley 'coz I have a photowalk that day. Anyway, Pauline got this idea and it turned out really nice and cute! =)

Pauls, Ikaw na! hahaha! =P

Thanks to my to nieces: Pauls and Pepz. =)

365 Photo Project | Day 11

Day 11 | "Mimi"

*photos are from my niece Mimi"

My Day 11 is all about my Niece Mimi, who graduated Magna Cum Laude in UST. =)

I am so very proud of her. She's a good example to her baby brother Babang and her cousins and niece. =) She is full of life and fun! She loves truly and strongly. *I think she got that from me. hahaha!*

Congratulations Mi! I know this is a late post, I have been occupied this past few days.

I Love you and Hugs You very much! =)

The Never Perfect Me

"I am Not Perfect and I Never Want to Be One. I May Hurt People Around Me, but at least I Know How to Say *I'm Sorry*. I Know how to Appreciate Simple Things and Feelings. I am Thankful and Will Always Be... I May Not Be the Best in Everything and that's Fine with Me. I Can Make You Laugh, Smile and Cry. I Can Give You a Helping Hand whenever You Need One... I Praise God with All that I am. I Can Love Truly and Deeply. I Can even Write You a Poem and Compose a Love Song just for You, but Please, Never Expect for A Perfect Me... Because I Will Never Be..."

I'll Always be the Simple Cecille who Laughs when You're trying to make me Laugh, who Cries whenever I get Hurt, who Smiles when You feel Down... Happy when You feel Sad, so You won't feel the World on your Shoulders...

All I Wanted is for Some People to Understand Me... and Never Judge Me because I'm Not Perfect...

No One Is...

*sigh*

Please Let Me Just Walkaway...

"I Just Don't Know How to Keep Myself Away from You... Whenever I Try to Leave and Let Go, You Always Walk Behind My Back and When I Turn Around, I Can't Help Myself but Come Back and Look into Your Eyes..."

*sigh*

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I am so mad with myself for not being able to just simply walkaway and not look back. I feel so stupid for not being strong enough to just let go because I know all these are very impossible... and why in the world can't you just let me go too???

The truth is, I was happy being able to just look at you from afar and stare at you when you pass by. I didn't want for us to know each other and I never want to know you the way I do now... It's gonna be very difficult for me because every time I started to walkaway, I can always hear you call my name... =(

Maybe I just want things to go back the way they used to... You have your own world while I have my own too... Worlds that are not too near and not so far from each other...

I am not feeling very well right now and I just want to have a good night sleep... =(