My 3rd Christmas Without You...

The 3rd Christmas without you... =(

Its been a long while now since the day you left. I was able to go on and push through everyday. In a few hours time, it's Christmas again and I have realized just now (that's why I am blogging now) that its has been 3 consecutive Christmases...

I won't deny the fact that it still saddens me remembering you, but I guess that was how it was suppose to be. Things have changed now though I haven't really felt any changes in myself, except for the fact that I am much stronger now because a day can pass by much easier than before...

I told myself a million nth times that all I can actually do is accept things as they are... and I will not die easily just because I am always the Broken Hearted Girl...

Anyway, still I wish you a Happy Christmas and a Happy Life.

Java is Love

School started about 2 weeks ago. My course curriculum includes Java Programming and I know that I have to study seriously harder than I did before. I have the outmost respect for this course because I know that it’s gonna be the foundation of my programming knowledge. =)

Focus on significant school stuff. =)

The Last Time

This is gonna be the last time that I’ll act like a fool and beat my heart to death... This is gonna be the last time my tears will fall because of you... This is gonna be the last time that I’ll make a huge rubbish of myself... This is gonna be the last time you’ll hear from me...
The Last Time...

The Circus

No matter how hard I try to tell myself that I'm okay, I know that somehow deep inside, I still feel the pain, the sadness and the good thing is I'm really good at hiding those unwanted feelings.

Most people I know will see me every day like I'm doing fine and nothing's wrong... But deep inside my heart, I know "There Will Always be Those Unexplainable Reasons Why I Have to Wear My Fake Smiling Face Every Single Day..."

I have never been this lonely in my life and no one seems to ever notice and that's really great because I don't have to feel guilty and explain myself why I am this way.

My life had been through deep waves of mostly downs and those one-minute lifting ups... No one may ever understand me, because they never tried to, they always tend to judge me before they look at me from a good side. People whom I thought cared for me are sometimes the ones who bring me down and push me hard on the ground... =(

My Life is a Circus, not because it is colorful but because of the happy masks I have to wear everyday.

The Love Thing

No one may really understand this four character word, because if you try so hard to elucidate how this feels, well good luck! =)

Love's meaning may differ for each and everyone. It depends on how you choose to love someone, there are times that some of us learns love the hard way and sometimes love is a fairy tale. However, it doesn't really matter, because in reality loving someone and loving truly is the important factor that gives meaning to this word.

Love is never perfect and please never assume it'll ever be. Love is a compromise, it's like a vice versa lane. It can never be a one way lane. When you feel that love thing, you'll know and at the same time be very confused about it.

When someone got hurt badly from loving they tend to just forget about it. It should never be like that because Love goes on... It believes. It's like the sun that always shine at it's brightest.

Never give up on Love... giving up is not an option because Love is for everyone. There is no right or wrong way to love someone, it's not like a class where love are the students, no one can never teach Love...

For me, Love is like the air I breathe. Without it, I will never survive. I always surround myself with the people whom I know love me and value me. These are people that I love too, I keep on pushing myself each and every day and never give up.

I can walk alone and battle alone, but I know that when I'm too tired, I can always go home, heal myself and be ready for the next battle. Love is not about who wins or who lose in the battle. I may always lose but I know in myself I fought a good fight. I can always face the world knowing I loved and I will always love. =)

I am not an expert in love and I am just writing this Love thing because I want for everyone to feel and know that True Love is the reality. For some, it may turn out like feeling lost at first, but hey, Love is worth the travel right? It's worth every step.

Love is most of the times very complex and sometimes, it ends in a manner that you will never understand. When love ends one chapter, another new one starts... So never lose hope.

Love is True, Love is Real. =)

For My Bestfriend. =)

Sometimes in Life there really are Bonds Formed that can Never be Broken. Sometimes You really can Find that One Person Who will Stand by You no Matter what. Maybe You'll Find it in a Spouse and Celebrate it with Your Dream Wedding, but there's also a Chance that the One Person You can Count On for a Lifetime, the Person who Knows You Sometimes better than You Know Yourself is the Same Person who's Been Standing Beside You All Along... -Bride Wars

This is for my bestfriend Eddilyne Ruallo Berlanga, for your special day (someday soon).

I was watching the movie Bride Wars the other night and I heard the words from one the characters on the film. I just realized that those words were all true. I have a bestfriend for almost 23 years now and I would have to say that she's that one person who knows me well than I know myself. The person who have been standing with me all along.

I am happy to have known her, she's the one who keeps away bullies from way back kindergarten. I have always been the tear jerky. But things have changed now too except for our friendship. People would always ask: "You're still bestfriends?"

Oh well, we will be even for all the lifetimes we will have.



My bestfriend is in love right now and she deserves the happiness from this LOVE. =) We were just texting last night about some random important things and even if we're a little far from each other, it doesn't matter.

Anyway, she'll be here soon with us so distance for us now is like a week or two.

What we always think is that we we're actually sisters except we have different birth parents. *laugh*

I just really loved the movie and it got me thinking that someday, when we both reach the part of our lives where we would be sharing it with someone, the two of us will still be standing along side each other. =) and we will make sure that we won't get hitched at the same day. *laugh*

She's more of the No Stress Future Bride and I am a self confessed Future Bridezilla. *laugh x 3*

Anyhow, my Bes is better than the bestfriend I could ever asked for.

Thanks Bes for never judging me and always staying by my side no matter what the road life takes us. Hugs! Stay In Love. =)

My Day Yesterday

It's really been a very long day for me. I am quite happy with some of my assignments in My oDesking Life because my buyers are really great and of course the members of my team. They really help a lot on making me feel a little less "bobo". I was sort of feeling like I was really getting "mahina" when it comes to my tasks. *tsk*

But this day is much better than the other ones... I am slowly getting back into my line and it's always a good thing when that happens.

It's 03:33am and I am still up. I am really tired but I cannot sleep.

I am praying and hoping that my day later is going to be a little much better and that I can accomplish all the tasks in my hands. It makes me feel good when I finish all what I have to.

Kuya is home. I somehow feel better about it. Makes me feel like I don't know, maybe safe because he's my Kuya of course. We never had any row for a really long while and it's good. He'll be going back in Makati within this week because he'll be starting he's new job in Marriott Hotel Manila. I am proud of him really, even though he most of the time acts like he is the youngest in the family.

I think that is why I got really matured in the way I think early. There was someone who told me that I am a child, but maybe that is because that person never really valued me for the things I did right. Well, anyway this year is going to add up another one into my middlesome age...

I'm not dreading getting older. I don't know why...

I don't want to celebrate my birthday and it's really far from now. I just don't want to celebrate it... I haven't personally (deep inside me) celebrated my birthday for two long years now (turning 3). I just don't want to.

I am planning a birthday day out for my Kuya though, maybe I'll buy what he's been asking me for, as a birthday gift and treat him and our Mama out for a lunch or dinner and go to church.

I missed going in the Greenbelt Dome Church. One of these days when I have time to visit my relatives in Makati, I will definitely go there and pray and just sit for a while. I used to that when I was still going to school in Mapua Makati. I used to go there every afternoon before I head home...

It's almost 4am now and I should be heading for bed.

It's going to be a long day for me later. But I am always thankful for the blessings that God gave me and my family. Actually, My Family, My Friends, My Work, My Teammates are more than enough. =)

The Dark Side...

I have this other blog page which I recently made. I was thinking of ways on how to make both my blogs somewhat different from each other and I come up with a great idea.

This blog is too colorful for me to post rants, sadness, pains and more rants. So, I have decided on making Never Glance Back as the complete opposite of this blog.

I plan on posting My Dark Side there. It doesn't literally mean like me being mad or evil. It's a place where I can relieve and share all the things that keeps on bothering me and things that keeps on making my mind go 360...

Anyway, it's not bad to let your mind take a rest and clean out things that makes it feel bad and somehow, makes your mind wander inside a never ending maze...

Different...

Our Lives maybe turning Upside Down
It may seem that all the Troubles are converging in on Us...
Rainy Days may stay for a long while
Through All These


I Will Stand Still
I Will Stand Tall
I Will Be Strong
My Prayers... and My Faith... Are My Weapon
My Mom and My Brother, Are My Home and Serenity


I Will Fight All These
I Will Make it Through, together with My Loved Ones
I Can Fly High and Soar in the Sky
I Can Swim the Deepest of Seas and
Climb the Highest of Mountains


These are Just Trials
God Won't Let Us Fall and
I Would Never Let Him and My Family Down
This is Me...


Different...

I Need to be Back on the Line

It's 05:16am in my machine clock and I should have been working all night and early morning long... but I was so sleepy, I wasn't able to do so.

I do have a job and it's a home based job, where I am a Writer.

I have been a freelance provider in oDesk for almost a year now and I must keep up with all my work, projects and assignments.

I'm just really not feeling well this past few days and whenever I feel sick, it's very difficult for me to write.

I am now sipping an ice cold latte and I am here in my cousin's attic, well its not really like a dirty attic, it's actually a nice comfy room that looks like an attic. I have this really small corner all for myself and it feels good to be in this corner.

I will be working all day today and I should keep up my pace.

I've actually been out of myself lately... Some things from my past keeps on flashing back even in my dreams and it is not a good thing for me. Anything that reminds me of My Past is not good for me or my health and it worries me...

I would have to say that this affects me, everyday...

I have to get back on track and I must not keep my guards down... I can't and I won't. I must keep my head up high even though most of the times I feel like crying and just giving up.

I hate to be in this kind of situation and I cannot go back to my sulky self. I must be strong and steady. I should...

Never Glance Back.

Happy Birthday Mama. I Love You. =)

It's my mom's birthday tomorrow and I wish her many more birthdays to come, good health, happiness and blessings from God. =)

My mama is someone really cool, not because she always say yes to what I want but because she is the only person in this world that I know and I am sure, Loves Me the most...

Mama is a strong woman with deep faith in our Creator. She never winders when storm often converge and she stands tall when I am about to fall. My Mama is My Bestfriend and My Shelter. =)

She never tell me (even though I know) I am tamad (tamad magluto and tamad nag ayos higaan sa hapon). =P

She thinks of her children and always keeps them her top priority next to God. =) She can sometimes be very over protective but I know she acts that way because she don't want anything bad happen to me. =)

My Mama is the Best Mama in this whole wide world. I am proud to say She is My Mama and I am Her Daughter.

I will always be by My Mama's side, through thick and thin. I will assure her that I will give back all the Love she gave me. I will never let anyone hurt my Mama, because if someone made that very wrong move, I will make sure that I won't get mad but get even. =) hahaha. *evil laugh* =P

Happy birthday again Ma. =) You're more than just the best Mom, You're also one of the Strongest Woman I know. Love You Ma. =)

-Cil

I am a Filipino. I Vote for Our Nation. =)

I Vote Today not because I have to, but rather because I want to. I voted based on what I believe and voted for the Candidates whom I know and I am sure will make a Huge Difference for the Filipino People. I didn't vote based on who is the Poor or who is the Rich. I am not the type of Person who will be persuaded with advertisements or with what other people think. I Vote not just for Myself but for My Nation. Let's all Vote for Someone who have the Heart, the Conscience, the Dignity, the Capability not to Rule but to Guide the Philippines, the Compassion, Faith in God and especially those who Acted for the sake of others. Let's make a difference and build up our Nation. Let's all start Today. =)

For My Mama and All the Mom's, Happy Mother's Day! =D

Mom's are always the best person in this whole wide world. =)

She's always strong and courageous, making sure that her kids are all doing fine. Keeping them safe and happy. You know you're safe when you're mom is around and you'll be sure that you'll never be alone because she will be with you all the time. =)

Moms are often tired from taking care of us but you'll never hear them say "I'm tired..." She'll be waiting for you when you enter the house from school/work and you'll be pampered by her because she knows you had a long day. =D

Mom cooks really good food and will often ask what do you want for lunch or for dinner. She laughs and smile when you try to be funny. She stands tall when your world is shaking, She gives out her hand and you'll be sure she will never let go when you feel tired from everything.

My Mama, She's the Best. Taking good care of Me even when I'm old enough to be taking care of myself. =D

So Mama, You can also be sure that I will always be by your side taking good care of you every single day. =D Love You Ma! =D

And to all the Mom's, May you always be happy, fulfilled and blessed. =) Love You Groovy Moms =D


Love Loads,
-Ces

Blue Notebook

I don't know how to start what I wanted to say...

All I have is a Blue Notebook and some Letters for people I love and care for.

That Blue Notebook holds everything that is dear to me, it is full of unexplainable feelings, thoughts, wishes and dreams. That Blue Notebook is Me.

There are some things that is very hard for me to explain and even more difficult for me to understand. I always feel alone even though I have my family with me... The feeling of aloneness comes from deep inside me and I'm tired of it.

I don't know if I am a bad person for not being able to understand others 100 percent. I am doing my best to be someone they want me to be. Someone strong. I don't know why people expect me to be someone who'll fit their lives...

I really don't want to make Epilepsy an excuse to not understand others and for them not to understand me... Who would want something like this? I'm sure no one will take my place even for just an hour.

I feel stupid acting like a fool. It hurts me to be like me... =(

Someone once told me "I will be with you as long as you need me..." but that wasn't true... I don't believe in words like those...

I feel pain and I know something is not right. I don't want anyone to know because I have learned that if you feel pain, just keep it to yourself... I learned that and I hold those words in my heart...

No one sees the real me. When they look at me, they'll see someone who laughs. Someone who makes people laugh. They see me strong, tough and cold... But the real me is far from that person I play everyday...

I'm sad because after 26 hard years of my life, I haven't found that one true love... Never had someone who don't judge me. I never had someone who kept their promise... I feel sad because I am sick and there is no cure for my condition... and people often judge me and say awful things about me...

I feel sad for a reason that only me knows and only me will understand... =(

Respect???

I know people would always say: "Never write when you're mad or when you feel angry... or Never write from anger..." well , this time I don't care about that, I feel so much pain and hatred...

I know I am not a good person but I am also not a bad one. I am somewhere in between... I always feel sad about seeing people who are less fortunate and I know, I need to do something to help those people in my own little way... However, I get really pissed off when someone tells me I don't have respect and that I am a really bad person, when someone tells me things that I don't even know I did or things that hurt the people I care about. I become this person I don't know I am when, I know that the person I care most about feel pain and when they get hurt by someone who thinks he/she is above others...

D**N them people!!!

I don't care if people think I don't have any chance at all in making my dreams come true because I am some kind of Epileptic! People judging me for who I am, for the things I can and cannot do and mostly, people judging me because of the faults I made in life...

I am doing the best I can to be someone I wanted to be... To reach for those dreams that I have lost when My Life fell apart... I know I am still far from reaching for my stars but I will never give up even though sometimes I would tell I want to just let go of those dreams...

Someone told me I have no respect... But maybe that is because we have different views about the true meaning of Respect.

Respect for me is when I am doing my promise to take care of my Mom. Respect is when I don't say anything against the people who have hurt me... Respect is when you ask for forgiveness when you know that what you did was wrong... Respect is when I don't say anything even though I feel so much pain. Respect is when you don't leave the side of the people who need you the most. Respect is when you take the hand of your bestfriend and tell her/him that everything is gonna be A okay. Respect is when you catch the people you love before they even hit the ground...

I am doing my best of what and how I can to be a respectful person and learn from all my mistakes and I did... I am never gonna be a perfect person and I never wanted to be one...

When you are Perfect, You won't need Anyone else to Fill Up the Empty Spaces in Your Life...

I know I have said some hurtful things just now but that is because all the pain inside me and all the questions have been all wanting to just get some freedom from being kept inside my heart...

I have learned my lesson very well to never trust my heart again... My heart can be very persuasive, very clever and careless... I now trust myself and see to it that I will never make the same mistakes again...

Right now, I just want to fly to the moon and be back when all the pain bursting inside me have calmed down...

I have been very brave about facing uncertainties in my life and I have been doing just fine on making ways for me to get by... I just don't like it when people keep on judging me for who I am. They don't know me and they don't know how I feel...

For me, NO ONE has the right to judge anyone on this planet, whether what they did is right or wrong... Only God has the right to do that and even when God has all the power to judge us, He never did... and that should make us see and realize that we don't have the single right to say things about people, but just live our lives the way we should and wanted without hurting other people...

RESPECT is something that we should all earn... and make sure We all deserve that Respect...

Safe Tanning

Traditional Sun Tanning can be very harmful for your skin and for your health. Staying for long hours under the sun can give you skin infection, allergies and even cancer. Most people would probably wondering on how they can have that golden bronze tan this summer, safe tanning is now the best option that you can choose.

There are safe tanning lotion, cream and gels that you can use, it's very easy and convenient since you can use it in the comfort of your own home and you won't have to pay for the very expensive tanning salons.

You can also easily purchase these safe tanning products over the net and visiting these sites will give you information that you need to have that perfect tan without sacrificing your health.

Self Tanning Products
Air Brush Tanning Info
Fake Tanning Info

You should not deprive yourself in enjoying the summer and being confident about meeting new people and mingling with them. Safe tanning is the best solution for your tanning problems.

Untitled...

I don't know how to entitle this post so I just literally jot down "Untitled". It's 08:30am here in my clock, I am so exhausted from work, I've been up all night working.

I played volleyball with my niece for an hour and ate breakfast and took an early bath. I should be sleeping now but here I am, blogging. I was supposed to go with my niece and buy foods and stuff at the grocery but she'll go ahead with her ate. I'm so tired but I can't sleep.

I should be up an hour after 12nn but I guess it'll be more late than that. I want to sleep but I'm still having a hard time letting myself go to bed. I have loads or work and I mean loads of work!!! but I know I can still put up a good fight for this week.

I feel like I'll be having a fever (please not) and my hands and back ache like it never did before... *tsk*

I hope to sleep dreamless and that I won't wake up every 20 minutes or so... Just a soundless sleep and that I'll be able to have a good rest.

I'll head to bed now... Until later.

Starlight Tears (Boys Over Flower Theme)

I saw the English translation of the Song: Starlight Tears that is from the Boys Over Flower soundtrack over the net.

I love the song and I love the lyrics too, just sharing it because it's very nice to share. =)

"Starlight Tears"

the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

please look at me, like the faraway stars
can't you be the one that's in my heart


It's has a good piano intro too. =)

My Lotion Addiction =D

Yes, I have a lotion addiction if that's how you should call it. I keep on purchasing lotions even if I have huge bottles/containers that I haven't emptied.

I love to see lotions around me and I don't know why. I have these huge containers of Nivea, Nivea Cream, Johnson's Baby Milk Lotion, Victoria Secret, Bath and Body Works and Yogurt Body Lotions in different flavored Scent.

I got the chance to count my lotion collection just last night and I was a bit shock to have counted 28 Lotions all in all, scented oils not included, Body Wash and Colognes too.

I don't know, I keep on buying them even if I know that I don't have to... But I do finish down like a bottle in one week, so I guess it's okay right? =)

I mean, it's an essential at least for most women around.

Oh and Soaps too! I love them scented Dove, Olay and Baby Soaps. It sometimes makes me laugh inside on how I have gotten into having 28 lotions and the small on-the-go bottles not included. =)

Well, I think I deserve to purchase what I want and what I feel I want right? I do really tough work so I need some stress reliever too. =)

I was thinking, I should buy some foot lotion starting later 'coz it's payday for me. =) Oh I love Paydays! =)

oDesk you really are my number one! =) but of course my boss's too. =)

I will wake my niece up and we'll play some volleyball, it's our every other day routine for this summer. Fun! =)

Sleepless...

I can't sleep and I really want to. I am not feeling very well and I do mean literally feeling sick. I don't want to go and consult my doctor because last time I did, I didn't like the outcome.↲I am now again having these unwanted things in my mind. I really don't want to think about anything right now. I am so exhausted.↲i'm confused about so much...↲Tired...

Books...

I bought about 8 books since late last year and I only finished one. Yes, you read right, just one book.

I love books, I love reading novels and stories, it gives me more idea about how to write and gives me different views about life. Some people say that reading books will not teach you different things about life and it'll only make you bookish. However, for me books are like maps, they teach you the right way when you get a little lost.

Well, maybe because some of those people don't like to read and makes them say such a thing.

The latest books I bought were titled: "Dear John" by: Nicholas Sparks, its was made into a movie which I prefer to read first because books explains the characters feelings and I have a huge and strong imagination. Second book is titled: " Love the One You're With" by: Emily Giffin, I was captured by this book's title so I bought it. I would really love to read my books and not just stack them in my little table of books. I would love to spend a day with each book and be happy about reading it.

I cannot keep myself away from bookstores that often call my name and tell me things like: "we have a new book by your favorite author or don't you love the smell of new books on the racks?" yeah, I am addicted to books but I just don't buy them to make me feel good, I buy them to read and make me feel good. There's a difference between the two. =)

Work is really occupying most of my time now, but a little time for my books won't hurt right? *urgh* tell that to my workaholic self... yes, I am a certified workaholic, I just finished working on some web content writing and it's almost 5am here, I feel bad because my family is sleeping sweetly when here I am just finished work...

I am still thankful though, working is like my own personal brand of heroin (though I never had the intention of using one). =)

My dad is going to be home this week. I'm not walking on the same pace with him this past few months, maybe its because I am such a bad daughter or maybe he just can't really understand me or the other way around. At least I'm not denying I've been a little pain on my dad's behind... I used to be a papa's girl and I turned out to be a mama's girl now. hahaha. =) I love my parents and my older brother who acts younger than I am... kiddin'

I pray for a good health and no sleepy head moments for me for this week's work. I have a new job and a potential new one, I hope so... Well, I love my oDesk Life and I'm going to work hard as everybody does. =)

But for now, I'm going to sleep and I'm sure it'll be long hours of sleep for me, I need to make up for some sleepless nights from the past few days and health is also important. =)

Cecille here now blogging off... =)

My oDesk Life

I've been doing some home based job for almost a year now as a Writer, SEO Consultant, Link Builder, Blogger and a Web Content Writer.

I have always dreamed of becoming a writer. I've been writing in our college newspaper before and even become an editor. I am very passionate about writing and I love what I do. Some say its a God given talent and I am always thankful for having these words in my head that never seem to fade.

I've been a freelance provider in oDesk and I would have to say that it is really very convenient for me since I cannot really do office work away from home, due to my medical condition. I have been through some moments where I was denied a job because I have Epilepsy. It saddens me still to be not able to work away from the comfort and safety of my home but my home based job is something that I really treasure and it gives me the courage to Keep on Moving Forward...

There are buyers that can be a little pain in the butt, but there are those who are really very nice and can be trusted. Good buyers makes me want to work harder and be one of the many good freelance providers around the net.

This is my job and I love it. This is something that I will keep on holding to until I have more courage to fulfill some of my dreams that have been washed away by the storm and the trials I've been through.

I have really change for the past few years and I know that I will never be the same person as I was before. I think and feel that the changes made were something I never imagined I will ever go through... People would often tell me that I have changed and I never denied it.

I have changed my priorities and I am doing things on my own. I still appreciate advice from family and friends but as I have said, I have changed...

I can say that I am not a totally good person and neither I am bad... Maybe I'm one of those who are in between.

Saw these pictures somewhere in the net and of course I can use them to post anywhere, for free. I just had an idea of what to write about. So here goes nothing...

I know it's not valentine of any kind or puso day, neither I am into it. Ever wonder why this L.O.V.E. thing can make or break someone? Well, it really depends...

People, they say and I think too, seems to act odd when they're under the spell of this four letter word. They can be the best or the worst of themselves, they can do anything like climb the highest mountain or swim the deepest of seas... they can also be selfish and stupid.

I've been through there and that... hahaha. Not that I am an expert, I never was... because if I was, well... should I need to say it? =P

Am I making any sense? I guess not, but lately I've been really wanting to post this pictures and write something about it, I want to get rid of it too, since it's occupying loads of space on my drive.

These are the pictures.





Do you picture yourself on this one? When your heart seems to be feeling so much for someone? but that someone don't even care of turning around and look at you to see and know how you feel? *tsk*





Or are you feeling the same with this photo? or maybe...





Both of you are on this happily ever after, blissful, sweetness L.O.V.E.

Any of this picture can describe how you feel, right? but of course there are exceptions... some people, don't see themselves here, because they are now color blind, cannot seem to figure out the little red thing.

They often said that Love is Blind, for me, I think it's the person who is in it, who was once in it and who'll soon be into it, that is blind, not because they can't see, but rather refuse to see it... that's why they get blinded by it.

As for me, oh well. I'm not really in any of these photo's... I am now color blind and I can say that it's sometimes better not to see colors, grays and pale shades are fine with me, no strong bright colors that can hurt my eyes.

Since I wrote this and find these pictures, I want one that I can picture myself. =P so I edit one of the pictures to come up the best one to describe me or that missing red thing. hahaha.

So anyone on this photo too?






yah... hahaha.

Don't react you guys, just making a post here. It's been a while since I write posts like this and I guess it's okay.

I've been busy lately, my hands are quite full, just had a little break and post these ones here.

Have a goody good weekend everyone. =)