On Soul Searching

From days to weeks, then weeks to months.

It’s been more than seven months since I finished my AB (BA) Journalism degree; I would have to say that at first, I thought that battling daily fights to accomplish requirements at J School for this degree would be the most difficult part, however, I was mistaken, completely.

I’ve been trying my best to land a position as a writer, but to no success, I’m still here, searching.
The past few months have been humbling, these months have made me stronger for accepting that some things I would like to have may not be for me, or probably I am just in the wrong place and time.

I have felt rejected in the past, I know how it is to fail (and to never give up, ever). Apparently, these rejections are quite different; I most of the times feel like I am not good enough and sometimes, I simply am not good at what I do.

If things are not going to get better, I may have to find the means to achieve my dreams far away from home. Most Filipinos are known to work overseas and I’m seeing myself to be one of them, really soon.

Time is running fast, at least for me; this is how it feels for the past weeks of contemplating about life. I need this journey, the next chapter that I will be writing. I feel lost and at the same time, it feels like being lost is leading me to something better.

Defeat may think it finally won over me, I may seem like an ordinary warrior, but there’s more to me than meets the eye. I’ve been through so much difficulties that these too shall pass.

I have gained something from all these failure, I am not the sort of person to just easily give up, I’ve come this far, too far to just fall back. I know how to choose battles now, and this one is worth the pain and scars.

A brighter day is yet to come.

When

When suddenly things change and then you'te stuck in a moment and you don't know what to do.

When you feel that you're drowned with the people around you telling you what to do or what not to do.

When you feel alone but you think it's okay because you have always been.

When things are expected of you but you fail miserably because you're out of courage and determination.

This is that moment, when all these 'whens' are hunting you and will stop at nothing to bring you down.

Because.

P&G Philippines celebrating its 80th year for a good cause

Procter & Gamble (P&G) Philippines recently launched its ‘P&G Linis, Lusog’ program on its 80^th year celebration. President and general manager for P&G, Shankar Viswanathan emphasized the importance of having a proper hygiene to prevent diseases from spreading and affecting the health of students.

P&G Philippines will distribute 80 permanent hand washing facilities and a year supply of P&G soap products on different barangays within the metro. They first started on West Rembo Elementary School and South Cembo Elementary School.

President and general manager for P&G, Shankar Viswanathan (left) presenting their gifts to the South Cembo Elementary School, with its Principal Ms. Irene Aquino (far right)

“We want to contribute to the society. We want the P&G kids to learn the basic concepts of health and hygiene, especially hand washing which is the most important thing to save yourselves from various diseases,” said Shankar Viswanathan.

According to the South Cembo Elementary School principal, Ms. Irene Aquino, even before the P&G Philippines’ ‘P&G Linis, Lusog’ program, they have followed the Global Hand Washing Day which is held every October 15 that started last 2013 and taught their students the importance and steps of proper hand washing. Since starting the program, they have noticed that there are less reports of diseases from their students and the health of their community has improved.

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Unpublished report: June 30, 2015

Residential building that collapsed in Barangay 179 Maricaban Pasay City

The residential building that collapsed in Barangay 179 Maricaban, Pasay City, due to the continuous dredging for the flood and drainage project of DILG.

Now 3 families are temporarily relocated in the barangay hall, with only thin mattresses to shield them from the cold concrete flooring.

I need to see the other side of the world; it is really dangerous out there, but a story that matter needs to be delivered to people.

I may have the passion to deliver news and stories, but I have to say I need experience to handle this sort of case.

Thanks to my co-intern Krixia. I saw in her the determination to gather information. I see myself in her weeks ago, I may have spaced out for a bit lately...

Am I up for the real journo life? We'll see...

The Manila Metropolitan Theater: A history and its road to a glorified restoration

For more than four decades, the Manila Metropolitan Theater (MET) has been in ruins; it has 8,239.58 square meters of floor area and during the late 1940s it housed an ice cream parlor; used as a gay bar and boxing arena in the 1960s. The theater has a capacity of 1,670 seats, 846 orchestra and 718 balconies.

Design by a known Filipino architect Juan M. Arellano in January 1930, inspired by the early Filipino art and diverse images of the Philippine flora, Arch. Arellano want a modern design for the theater. Now that the National Commission for Culture and Arts (NCCA) owns MET, plans to restore the old glory of the building is its number one goal, “what we’ll do is to restore the original (design), so that you won’t know the difference between 1931 and today”, said the NCCA Chairman Felipe M. de Leon Jr.

According to the NCCA chairman, it would take two years for them to restore MET, they are eyeing to work with Arch. Tina Paterno who is the executive director of the San Sebastian Basilica Conservation and Development Foundation and Engr. Villarasa.

Signing of the Deed of Absolute Sale with GSIS and NCCA, Pasay City (GSIS Office)

It’s been two years since the NCCA started to create a master plan, a plan which the Department of Budget and Management requires for them to be provided the exact funds to purchase MET. The plan is comprise of how they are to make use of the theater once it is fully restored to its old beauty, in which the NCCA chairman said that students, teachers and schools in Manila can use it for their art exhibits, films and other performances.

The NCCA purchased MET to the Government Service Insurance System (GSIS) for 270 million Php and signed the Deed of Absolute Sale on Thursday, June 10, 2015 on the GSIS building.

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Unpublished report: June 11, 2015

Being Pushed Away

A person can count on how many times another person pushes him/her away; some may do something about it and for some, just take it and pretend like nothing's wrong.

As for me? Well, I found myself pretending like nothing's wrong and everything's fine.

For those times that I have the chance to walk away, but never really have the courage to do so. No one is to blame besides me. I brought this upon me, the sadness.

It's been days and here I am, contemplating about how I let all things got worse. Been missing classes 'coz apparently I am not feeling well.

I know myself, I'll be able to face the world again, in a few days time. I just probably need a little time, a little time for myself.

I cannot afford to be pushed away again, for the longest time. My life recently have been chapters of ups and downs (mainly downs) and there are some few people who keep on holding unto me, for me not to get lost again, while in the process of achieving my dreams...

I just really feel sad lately, but I'll be okay.

Soon enough.

-Kring

For Far Too Long

People see things differently and even if I badly wanted to exclude myself in the equation, I simply just can't. You know how we all sometimes get things wrong, but in the process everything seem right? Well yes, in reality it happens.

We would see ourselves strong, not until we face what we fear most; like acceptance and letting go. There are quite some few things that I always consider (just because I am most of the times still scared) before I push myself to move on.

First is, wasting time hovering unto something that my mind knows means nothing. Like hoping to take love in return; yes I know for a fact that it shouldn't be taken, less likely to asked for. Love is a decision, not an option because we would say: "I love (insert name here), because blah... blah... blah..."

Second, well obviously because we feel that we love that person and that we don't want to spend days without him/her. But the real question should be: "Does that person reciprocally feels the same way we do towards him/her?"

Yes, we can blame ourselves for falling for someone who can never love us back. Blame ourselves all we want, then succumb to the pain for being dum-dum. Overthink about the almost could have beens of the love we feel, then feel disappointed with ourselves even more.

It's been far too long that I should have walked away from what I know is an endless journey with no destination whatsoever; now here I am, blogging my written thoughts away... Trying to drown the sadness with words which I know I can only do for now.

Because the truth is, it is really hard to walk away and never look back.

-Kring

God bless Philippines and Its People

Seeing my Facebook news feed full of political posts make me realize that people really have their own opinions on who deserve positions in this country. Each and everyone's voting decisions are valuable, we may all not have the same views, but we should all respect what others think.

Personally, I think that these people who received votes should all be given chance to prove not just to us Filipino people but also to themselves that they can serve this country and its people well.

None of these politicians are perfect and neither are we. They may have won because of money, (family) popularity, power, and other not-so-good numerous reasons, but we should not judge them this early.

Let's also make good changes not just for ourselves, but also for our countrymen and this country.

Not all of the candidates that I think deserve to win has won in this election, because my opinion is not the same as everyone's.

I would like to congratulate people who are now going to serve us. Please make sure that our votes won't be meaningless.

This Election 2013 is a chance for everyone to make both improvements and changes to our country.

God bless Philippines and its people.

-Kring

Introduction To Journalism: Midterm Project Proposal

Our class was given a project to be accomplished for this Midterm period of this semester and our professor assigned each and everyone in our class a place (beats) for us to cover and find story about.

I was given Glorietta Mallls, located in Makati City and what I have in mind is to come up with a magazine-like project that would have different sections such as: Editorial, Fab Finds, Food, Fashion, Event, Clothing and Accessories Store and create a story for each sections.

Now, as the Midterm examinations are just days away (I'm a bit dreading it since I have so much to do and I've been procrastinating for the past few days) I have to start taking photos, writing stories, and preparing my layout for my magazine project that I would title "Glamour Glorietta".

Last meeting in our ITJ class, my classmates and I had so much fun watching a movie titled: "Morning Glory" which is really cool, especially for those who plan on entering the world of broadcasting. The movie will show how busy, tiring, stressful, and fun a work can be. Also, how you'll meet people at work that can change your life and make it better.

Morning Glory Movie Poster

So this is our class while watching the movie and I am telling you, I was so sleepy that morning for having had less than 2 hours of sleep but the movie made me laugh and it was a really nice morning at our ITJ class, thanks to our Professor Ma'am Maria Merzenaida Donovan.

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ITJ Class (January 19, 2013)

So back to my ITJ Midterm Project, I will have all photos taken by this week and will be writing all write ups before our exam and will spend 3 days for the layout. *Fingers crossed*.

^_^

By the way, before I forget, come Saturday my classmates would be presenting their updated blogs in our class, that'll be interesting.

^_^

Toodles!

-Kring

Introduction To Journalism: Blog All The Way

Just now, our Intro to Journ professor asked us to update our blog pages (for existing bloggers) and create a blog page (for new bloggers), so here I am updating my blog, in class. ^_^

It looks like I'll be blogging more in the coming days. My blog is gonna be a lot happier.

Here's a photo of my ITJ class which I took some minutes ago.

Blog, blog, and away!

Back To School: "The Productive Me"

Classes officially start "Friday" for me (well, it actually started last week but I was so lethargic that I didn't attend my first day of school for this year). I know... I know... I shouldn't have started my year that way and I am now making up for the laziness over powering me.

It's 02:45am here and I just finalized two parts of our group's term paper for this semester, I am also done with my assignment and I still have two more to go. I just took a break and decided to have a cup of coffee and blog.

I had some emotional lapses from last year and I am now doing my best to get over some feelings of sadness and I realized that I pushed myself too far to forgetting some sad memories from before. I should have given myself enough time to heal, so that's what I am going to do from now on.

I'm going to make myself more busy with school and work. Concentrate more on things that matter most and not let myself go down the drain because of laziness...

I may have started 2013 in a manner that really disappointed some people. So now, I'm gonna make things right and make sure that I live every single day with no regrets.

Another thing that I would have to accept is that I don't have the power to make my heart flutter with happiness, but at least I know how to make myself happy in general. There are more significant things and people that make my day worth while and I am very thankful for them.

^_^

I am now officially going back into my nerd mode. I'm gonna go back into finishing my school assignments after I finish this blog post.

^_^


Fighting Kring!

Almost New Year

We (means my mama, papa, kuya, and I) originally planned on spending new year at our home in Rizal. However, my mom thought it'll be nice to spend it here in my cousin's place in Sta. Rosa, Laguna where we spent Christmas last year. Also, my cousin wants for us to be with his family for new year's too. Cool huh. ^_^

I also missed my nieces and nephews badly so now my family's here. My papa on the other hand would be arriving tomorrow in the afternoon.

It's gonna be a wonderful new year for us. I am praying and hoping that my family would be blessed even more. I thank God for all the love and blessings he have given us for the past years.

I get to spend time with my nieces and nephews, laugh and buy toys for them. I'm really getting older though. *Bahehehe*.

I received a really nice gift from my Kuya Edward (my cousin who owns this cool place), he gave me an Otter Box protective case for my iPhone. I was so ecstatic about it. Happy iPhone Gal Me. ^_^

*I'll be posting photos most prolly tomorrow as I am now blogging with the help of my very reliable phone*.

However, my kuya who now works as a safety officer in a construction company needs my Otter Box case even more. So I have decided to give it to him instead. That's like my second gift for him this holidays. *Good little sister me.* ^_^

Anyway, I should be getting to bed by now as I need to be up early tomorrow and write my last F&B World magazine article for this year and send it over to my boss. I think the holidays made me even more letharghic, which is not good. I do intend to start my new year as a better person. ^_^

I'll blog and post photos tomorrow, but before that I would accomplish my written piece first.

Advance happy and blessed new year to all.

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*Always believe and never give up, especially when the road gets rough and narrow.*


-Kring

I'm A Happy Etude House Girl

Some couple of months ago, I have started my fascination with Etude House's products and I am now loving every single products they have. ^_^

My Mama has been very kind and generous to give me cash to haul Etude House products. But of course, some I get to purchase from my savings too.

I tried using their Happy Teatime - Aloe Tea to cleanse my face (morning and evening). I got their cleansing foam about almost two months ago and I still have about 1/4 of it.

I love how this smells fresh and lovely after I cleanse my face. It also makes my face smooth each day, which makes it my all time favorite Etude House product. ^_^

Some few days ago, I felt that I needed to purchase another cleansing foam for the reason that I don't wanna run out of supply. I have decided to try on Etude House's Happy Teatime - Green Tea. I loved it too since I have also tried it. Gives the same effect as the Aloe Tea, however, I love the Aloe's scent better. ^_^

I am planning on purchasing Etude House's Happy Teatime - Lemon Tea. However, I wasn't able to find it in Etude House Megamall today. I'll try to check on Etude House Market-Market next week *fingers crossed*.

Oh by the way, sorry for the photos I have posted in this blog post. It's been days since I have been planning on blogging about my Etude House haul. However I was too lethargic. I'll blog about more products I have tomorrow. One day at a time and better photos too!

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Also, I will purchase all the Skin Malgum family next week. I'm such a happy Etude House Gal.

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But now, I have to hit the sack 'coz I have so much school stuff to accomplish tomorrow. I feel so tired and exhausted today that I even fell on a street hole without even noticing it. Now both my legs hurt and my lower back is in pain too... *Sigh*

Sweetest night everyone!


-Kring

Preliminary Exams Right Around The Corner

Been quite busy with (procrastinating) school requirements since Preliminary examinations for this semester will start come Friday. Well, yes I have also been procrastinating for some few days and I know I shouldn't have been like that.

I have to make reviewers and review for my subjects. I have the full intention of getting higher marks than the marks I had last semester. I am just getting myself back on track since moving back here in my hometown was quite a fuzz.

I am now travelling almost 3 hours (without traffic) to go to school from home. I know it may sound mental of me to choose staying here over the city. However, as I come to think of it, almost 2 hours of commute from Makati to school is also such a pain in the @ss because of traffic.

So I choose to just stay here in my hometown, since I only have 3 days of classes every week. School is sort of wearing me out. I won't give up though.

^_^

I've been bombarded with school work since this morning and I still have to finish my never ending (hand written) project for my Filipino 02 subject and it's okay. I love that class so much.

So here I am now, looking all tired and fuzzy. ~_~

*Sorry for the low quality photo as I took this photo with my BB mobile.*

I wanted to take a short break away from my school projects and papers so here I am blogging. It's been a while too, since the last time I posted a blog here. I do plan to post more this coming Christmas vacation *fingers crossed*.

I have long overdue blogs and photos to post here on my blog. Can't wait for my Christmas vacation!

^_^

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Wish me luck with Prelim exams!

-Kring

All I've Ever Need

Excerpt from the Song: "All We'd Ever Need" by Lady Antebellum


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Everyday I wipe my tears away... So many nights I've prayed for you to say;

"I should have been chasing you, I should have been trying to prove, that you were all that mattered to me..."

2014. Fingers Crossed.

*To see those beautiful eyes of yours again would be priceless...*

✿ ✎ ♬ ♥

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-Kring

My Little LPU Bench

This is a late post, I originally posted this on my Facebook timeline last October 13th.

It was one of those mornings when I felt really tired from all the final examinations, projects, and school requirements that drained me of all my energy.

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October 13, 2012

Friday Morning at LPU Manila.

I had to review for my Physical Science Final exam for that day and I planned to go to the school library. However, I wanted a serene place where I can just feel free.

I saw an empty bench in the quadrangle and just sat there. Read my book and listen to my favorite songs.

Then it occur to me...

"I really miss you so much. I miss our crazy conversations... How you can make me laugh and happy... Felt really sad... Felt like crying..."

~_~

*One more exam to go come Tuesday.*

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My little school bench is under these lovely branches of trees that give that cool shade in an extremely hot day.

So from now on, whenever I feel sad, I'll just sit under these trees, on my little school bench.

I know that there would be days when I would really feel down because I miss you. But that won't stop me from achieving my dreams...

Then maybe, when I have finally fulfilled my little dreams and reach for my shining little stars, I would be given chance to see you and be with you again...

I still believe...

Jeongmal Saranghamnida...


-Kring

Nunmuli Naneundae "So Tears Come..."

52 Long Sad Days.

It's been that long since the last time I have seen you. The last time I saw your eyes, your eyes weren't smiling that time. Void of meaning... Looking at me like they don't know me at all, you cannot even look at me straight, for reasons that I will never know and will never understand...

I have been quite busy with school that I feel physically and mentally exhausted, it's been a roller coaster ride for me and almost everyone who crams to accomplish every requirements needed for our Final Period. Exams will soon come to an end tomorrow, just one more final exam for me and I can cry "Vacation!"

I was able to find time to sleep more hours lately and now, post a blog. Also, feelings that have been shoved aside have been biding me hello recently and I know "I Miss You" a lot. I won't deny the fact that there are those times in my busy days that you crossed my mind even without seeing things that remind me of you.

Tears are now starting to fall again, maybe because I miss you and most probably because I know you've gone too far away... Far away from me.

There were those sometimes that we get to chat over FB and I remembered having been able to talk with you over the phone since you go back home and left me here, eyes all soaked up with tears.

My every day is not all gloomy though, thank God for my sweet and good friends at school who make me laugh and smile most of the times. However, I can never compare those happy days I have spent with you before from the happy days I have now.

I know you're doing well now, as I am writing these words. Too busy and too occupied with work, friends, blogging, photography, and being happy. Living your life the way you want it, far from the days you lived your few months here in the Philippines.

How I want to just fly way up south and see you. See your beautiful eyes again and have those silly conversations that can make my heart flutter with happiness...

But reality is too kind (and I am being sarcastic now), too kind to let us be thousand of miles away from each other. Living me with just memories and photographs to write about.

How I Miss You So Much... that tears are coming my way again...

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"Gaseumi shirin ge baraman boneun ge geudaega eobtneun ge. Seupgwancheoreom iksukhaejyeo nan apeun juldo moreuneyo... Nunmuli naneunde maldo mothaneunde uteoya haneunde. Seupgwancheoreom geudae apeseo babocheoreom Saranghaeseo..."

Nunmuli naneundae...

-Words from Lee Hyun's song "My Heartache..."


Jeongmal Seulpeoyo...

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I am now even learning Korean language and Hangeul so that if fate gives me another last chance to see you, I can tell you how I feel for you with words I am sure you won't have difficult time understanding...

I still believe that someday, sooner or later I will see you and your beautiful eyes again...


-Kring

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Strangers Again

It's been 10 long days that things have started to change, I'm not really quite sure if it was 10 days, maybe 12. I'm not sure.

I know that people do walk in and out our lives, that can't be helped. However, he stormed out into mine like I never mattered to him. Like we never shared thoughts, problems, laughter, arguments, and those priceless times where I can just take a look at his eyes and smile.

I don't know how it all turned out like this.

He left without even saying Goodbye. The last time I saw him, he just told me about some random thing. He cannot even look me in the eye and smile, just like old times. He doesn't even know how sad I have become and how tears just suddenly drop from my eyes without me knowing it.

In just a short time, we have become strangers again. I am not blaming him for making me miserable for the past few days. Because, maybe it was my fault. I would rather see two of us argue about something than seeing my face all soaked up from tears.

Was it wrong to feel Love and be honest? Was it such a crime?

I go on every day like it is the same. However, I know that my every single day will never be the same, again...

I am now once again, back to my daily school routine of: breakfast at the cafeteria, library during vacant hours, and head straight home after classes. No more: "I'll see you at 1pm after your class", "Where are you?", "I'm home.", "Did you have lunch/dinner?", "Let's watch a movie.", "I'm starving, let's eat.", "No more uniquely words.", and "Take care."

I won't hear you laugh at things that sometimes, I think are stupid. I won't get excited for my classes to end because it means I'll get to see you and your beautiful eyes...

No more "Pangtoa" for me. Especially, no more you...

I may not understand the reasons as to how things have ended like it did. But still, I am thankful to have known you and that you have become part of my life, even for just a short while. I have learn really good things from you and I know, you're a good person. You may not have treated me well for the past days (and I know, I don't deserve that cold treatment) but that doesn't mean you have become someone not-so-nice.

Maybe, this has to happen because our lives were never meant to be together. You're living your own life and I have my own too. We are two different individuals that need to part ways. You have to go back to living your real life and I have to pretend that everything is okay, until pretending becomes reality for me...

I have to keep moving forward and be strong. I have always been one and I am not regretting any of these, especially now that sadness and the 'many-questions' are haunting me.

I always live my life with no regrets and I will never regret a single day that I have loved and cared for you...

"Jinja. Saranghamnida..."


-Kring

Brave Movie and Merida's Hair

Over the Phone Yesterday:

Him: "Your hair, every morning is like in Brave."
Her: *Thinking very hard about what he was trying to tell me, because he sounds really jibberish...* "Huh? What? I don't understand you..."
Him: "Okay, listen. Last movie we watch in Robinson Mall. Every breakfast, you hair is like in Brave."
Her: *Finally! I remembered telling him that my hair is like Merida's every morning.* "Oh, hahaha!!! Hahaha!!! Hahaha!!! Why? Do you know that my hair right now is like Merida's in Brave?" *That's because I haven't comb my hair since morning.*
Him: "Oh no... No..."

Hahaha!!! =))

Since he's so scared to see my hair all bushy and tangled, here's one photo for you! =P

Chitto and Kring Conversations Part 2. =D

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The Truth About Street Cats and Dogs in the Philippines 101

Because Chitto is still very fascinated behind the reasons on why cats and dogs here in Pinas are very kind towards each other, here are some conclusions we came up with:

Hee's:
1. Because the cats and dogs feel HOT due to the Philippine weather. According to him, the so-called "4 Seasons" in the PH are: Hot, Hotter, Best of the Best Hot, and Hot to Hell. *Hahaha!!! I couldn't agree with him more*
2. Some street cats and dogs have skin diseases and since they don't want to get infected, they choose to distance themselves from each other.
3. That cats and dogs here grew together and eventually become friends.

Kring's:
1. Because cats and dogs here understand each other well.
2. Cats and dogs here are gentle. *Really Kring? That's the best you can think of?*

Yes, I know, this question is something I cannot really answer well and whenever we talk about this, it makes me laugh! =))

Chitto and Kring Conversations Part 1. =D

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