Strangers Again

It's been 10 long days that things have started to change, I'm not really quite sure if it was 10 days, maybe 12. I'm not sure.

I know that people do walk in and out our lives, that can't be helped. However, he stormed out into mine like I never mattered to him. Like we never shared thoughts, problems, laughter, arguments, and those priceless times where I can just take a look at his eyes and smile.

I don't know how it all turned out like this.

He left without even saying Goodbye. The last time I saw him, he just told me about some random thing. He cannot even look me in the eye and smile, just like old times. He doesn't even know how sad I have become and how tears just suddenly drop from my eyes without me knowing it.

In just a short time, we have become strangers again. I am not blaming him for making me miserable for the past few days. Because, maybe it was my fault. I would rather see two of us argue about something than seeing my face all soaked up from tears.

Was it wrong to feel Love and be honest? Was it such a crime?

I go on every day like it is the same. However, I know that my every single day will never be the same, again...

I am now once again, back to my daily school routine of: breakfast at the cafeteria, library during vacant hours, and head straight home after classes. No more: "I'll see you at 1pm after your class", "Where are you?", "I'm home.", "Did you have lunch/dinner?", "Let's watch a movie.", "I'm starving, let's eat.", "No more uniquely words.", and "Take care."

I won't hear you laugh at things that sometimes, I think are stupid. I won't get excited for my classes to end because it means I'll get to see you and your beautiful eyes...

No more "Pangtoa" for me. Especially, no more you...

I may not understand the reasons as to how things have ended like it did. But still, I am thankful to have known you and that you have become part of my life, even for just a short while. I have learn really good things from you and I know, you're a good person. You may not have treated me well for the past days (and I know, I don't deserve that cold treatment) but that doesn't mean you have become someone not-so-nice.

Maybe, this has to happen because our lives were never meant to be together. You're living your own life and I have my own too. We are two different individuals that need to part ways. You have to go back to living your real life and I have to pretend that everything is okay, until pretending becomes reality for me...

I have to keep moving forward and be strong. I have always been one and I am not regretting any of these, especially now that sadness and the 'many-questions' are haunting me.

I always live my life with no regrets and I will never regret a single day that I have loved and cared for you...

"Jinja. Saranghamnida..."


-Kring